Cutecat25
22-12-22, 04:55
I had my first pap smear and it came back saying I had hpv "other". My dr said its not the high risk kind and to get retested in a year.
On top of this I found a small lump in my breast during my period. I just had a clear breast ultrasound 5 months ago, but terrified that this lump could potentially be cancer. My breasts become hard and extra lumpy during my period but that has since gone down since I started bleeding, yet the lump remains.
I have to wait a week for an ultrasound meaning I will have the worry hanging over my head over Christmas.
The next thing that has continuoulsy been causing me anxiety all year is quite sensitive and involves the topic of abortion, so if you feel this may upset you please stop reading here.
I had an abortion as well earlier this year due to my severe anxiety. This abortion followed a miscarriage I had at the end of last year. I regret it every moment of every day and so badly wish I could have been strong enough to continue with the pregnancy.
Since the abortion and miscarriage my anxiety has increased to the point where it's at an unmanageable level.
My best friend just told me she's pregnant and said to me "I can't believe I'm pregnant before you!." Despite knowing all I went through with the miscarriage and severe anxiety that led to the abortion.
I know I'm an awful friend but I can't even bear to see her have what I chose to loose. On top of this she encouraged me to get the abortion so I feel slight anger that she encouraged me to make the choice I did, and is now living my dream. I know at the end of the day I made the choice and I don't blame anyone else but I'm just expressing how I feel. Please do not judge.
My anxiety was unbearable and in the moment I felt I had no other choice.
I hate myself for the choice I made and I will live with that regret for the rest of my life.
What can I do do get through this? The anxiety over my abnormal pap, breast lump and now my friend announcing her pregnancy is all so overwhelming.
I can't sleep eat or really function.
Would appreciate any advice and if you managed to read this far, thankyou.
On top of this I found a small lump in my breast during my period. I just had a clear breast ultrasound 5 months ago, but terrified that this lump could potentially be cancer. My breasts become hard and extra lumpy during my period but that has since gone down since I started bleeding, yet the lump remains.
I have to wait a week for an ultrasound meaning I will have the worry hanging over my head over Christmas.
The next thing that has continuoulsy been causing me anxiety all year is quite sensitive and involves the topic of abortion, so if you feel this may upset you please stop reading here.
I had an abortion as well earlier this year due to my severe anxiety. This abortion followed a miscarriage I had at the end of last year. I regret it every moment of every day and so badly wish I could have been strong enough to continue with the pregnancy.
Since the abortion and miscarriage my anxiety has increased to the point where it's at an unmanageable level.
My best friend just told me she's pregnant and said to me "I can't believe I'm pregnant before you!." Despite knowing all I went through with the miscarriage and severe anxiety that led to the abortion.
I know I'm an awful friend but I can't even bear to see her have what I chose to loose. On top of this she encouraged me to get the abortion so I feel slight anger that she encouraged me to make the choice I did, and is now living my dream. I know at the end of the day I made the choice and I don't blame anyone else but I'm just expressing how I feel. Please do not judge.
My anxiety was unbearable and in the moment I felt I had no other choice.
I hate myself for the choice I made and I will live with that regret for the rest of my life.
What can I do do get through this? The anxiety over my abnormal pap, breast lump and now my friend announcing her pregnancy is all so overwhelming.
I can't sleep eat or really function.
Would appreciate any advice and if you managed to read this far, thankyou.