darkangel
25-11-07, 12:22
Just wanted to post my little achievement of managing hospital eye appointment yesterday.
A few months ago, a routine eye check at my opticians found "shapes" in my right eye and I was being referred to hospital eye opthamologist.
Got appointment last week. Long story, but after getting loads of support from friends on here, I went on my own, got taxi, faced hosptial corridors, etc, but by the time I got to the clinic my anxiety was so high that I was hyperventilating and was struggling to calm down. The build up had been so extreme that they didnt want to proceed with all the tests as no one was with me and they were advising to rearrange an appointment.
Came out feeling half a failure and half happy with myself that I had gotten into a taxi and into hosipital on my own.
Anyway, yesterday was my second attempt appointment. My boyfriend came with me. I couldnt let him down so it made me more determined to get through with it. After spending most of the morning in the loo, etc, etc, we got there only to find they didnt have my name on their list.............but the nurse who had dealt with me the previous week remembered me :blush: and spoke to the doctor man. They were so nice and told us to take a seat and she would go and locate my file. Part of me wished she would come back and say sorry they would have to call me back again. But she didnt and I got seen in about 10 mins. Will give you a wee account: nurse calls me, heart racing, legs like jelly, trying to brave, dont want to make a fool of myself (again) so I sits down on chair. She tells me that she has to put in anesthetic drops first, I of course have to get a complete explanation of what I may feel, etc, etc, etc.............drops go in NOTHING felt. God this is so easy I tell myself. They she gets a long white thing to touch my pupil................I counted to 15 and deep breathed.............IT WORKED, no panic..............then some drops next to dilate my pupils..................NOTHING felt again. So that was it......all my hours, days, weeks of analysing, worrying, searching on web, to find out what was going to happen and...................NOTHING DID HAPPEN!!! OK my eyes were a bit blurry and felt little strange when looking at lights but that was it!!
Sat in another room waiting to see doctor man, looked for ages an it turns out I have unusual pigmentation of my right eye, which is perfectly normal for me, and thats why shapes had shown on my examination. He will add into my notes for my optician so they know what the cause is.
So all my thoughts about what may be wrong, were only in my imagination yet again.
What have I learned from this......................dont jump to conclusions, dont think the worse, and definely stop saying What if..............
On a funnier note though, nurse put a sticker on me jumper saying "An award for bravery" :wacko: lol. Im laughing now, but Ive stuck it in my diary for yesterdays date, so when I look at it it will remind me that I did it.
Thanks for everyones support and for letting me write this all down as no-one else really understands.
Luv Darkangel x:flowers:
A few months ago, a routine eye check at my opticians found "shapes" in my right eye and I was being referred to hospital eye opthamologist.
Got appointment last week. Long story, but after getting loads of support from friends on here, I went on my own, got taxi, faced hosptial corridors, etc, but by the time I got to the clinic my anxiety was so high that I was hyperventilating and was struggling to calm down. The build up had been so extreme that they didnt want to proceed with all the tests as no one was with me and they were advising to rearrange an appointment.
Came out feeling half a failure and half happy with myself that I had gotten into a taxi and into hosipital on my own.
Anyway, yesterday was my second attempt appointment. My boyfriend came with me. I couldnt let him down so it made me more determined to get through with it. After spending most of the morning in the loo, etc, etc, we got there only to find they didnt have my name on their list.............but the nurse who had dealt with me the previous week remembered me :blush: and spoke to the doctor man. They were so nice and told us to take a seat and she would go and locate my file. Part of me wished she would come back and say sorry they would have to call me back again. But she didnt and I got seen in about 10 mins. Will give you a wee account: nurse calls me, heart racing, legs like jelly, trying to brave, dont want to make a fool of myself (again) so I sits down on chair. She tells me that she has to put in anesthetic drops first, I of course have to get a complete explanation of what I may feel, etc, etc, etc.............drops go in NOTHING felt. God this is so easy I tell myself. They she gets a long white thing to touch my pupil................I counted to 15 and deep breathed.............IT WORKED, no panic..............then some drops next to dilate my pupils..................NOTHING felt again. So that was it......all my hours, days, weeks of analysing, worrying, searching on web, to find out what was going to happen and...................NOTHING DID HAPPEN!!! OK my eyes were a bit blurry and felt little strange when looking at lights but that was it!!
Sat in another room waiting to see doctor man, looked for ages an it turns out I have unusual pigmentation of my right eye, which is perfectly normal for me, and thats why shapes had shown on my examination. He will add into my notes for my optician so they know what the cause is.
So all my thoughts about what may be wrong, were only in my imagination yet again.
What have I learned from this......................dont jump to conclusions, dont think the worse, and definely stop saying What if..............
On a funnier note though, nurse put a sticker on me jumper saying "An award for bravery" :wacko: lol. Im laughing now, but Ive stuck it in my diary for yesterdays date, so when I look at it it will remind me that I did it.
Thanks for everyones support and for letting me write this all down as no-one else really understands.
Luv Darkangel x:flowers: