sharoncjb
26-11-07, 17:28
I have suffered from health anxiety for years, the first time I can remember well was when I felt like I couldn't breathe properly at 13 - since then it has been one big fight with it, and to be honest I am now just so fed up feeling like it.
I am 39 years old and I think to be honest for the last two years there is really not a morning when I don't wake up and wonder what I am going to have to worry about today. I have the feeling every morning that I am going to die from something, it is just so awful, why can't I just stop all these feelings. I currently have a small cyst to worry about but my doctor has assured me that it is nothing serious but no I cannot accept this and she has now referred me to have it removed given my history of being totally obsessive about it, now I have worked myself into such a frenzy that my chest hurts, feel like I have indigestion and someone sitting on my chest, which I am in turn talking myself into heart problems, I laugh about it but all my friends know that I am being serious and this is what I am thinking, my chest hurts and I feel like I cannot breathe properly, they are all symptoms that I have had before, and to top it off I feel like my throat is constricting, which too is a symptom I have had many times before. I just feel so fed up with these feelings of doom all the time, it really is an awful way to spend my life and as hard as I try to stop myself being like it - there is no way out.
I am now just really fed up with feeling like this all the time, I feel a burdon to all my friends and feel that I just drive everyone mad with my constant asking for reassurance that I am fine and that I am worrying unnecessarily, please tell me I am not alone and help me try and stop these feelings, with some ideas.
I have a wonderful partner and three great children who I love dearly and I must stop these thoughts, I just try and tell myself why worry about things that aren't wrong but at the same time I don't believe there is nothing wrong and that is what is so hard. I am tired of the constant battle that goes on in my head, today I feel physically worn out and could shut my eyes and sleep - if I wasn't stressing over the feeling in my chest, I even feel sick too which just adds fuel to the fire!!
Any ideas or anyone who would like to chat please reply or PM me, this website is at least one place where there are people who feel the same.
Thanks for taking the time to read.
S
I am 39 years old and I think to be honest for the last two years there is really not a morning when I don't wake up and wonder what I am going to have to worry about today. I have the feeling every morning that I am going to die from something, it is just so awful, why can't I just stop all these feelings. I currently have a small cyst to worry about but my doctor has assured me that it is nothing serious but no I cannot accept this and she has now referred me to have it removed given my history of being totally obsessive about it, now I have worked myself into such a frenzy that my chest hurts, feel like I have indigestion and someone sitting on my chest, which I am in turn talking myself into heart problems, I laugh about it but all my friends know that I am being serious and this is what I am thinking, my chest hurts and I feel like I cannot breathe properly, they are all symptoms that I have had before, and to top it off I feel like my throat is constricting, which too is a symptom I have had many times before. I just feel so fed up with these feelings of doom all the time, it really is an awful way to spend my life and as hard as I try to stop myself being like it - there is no way out.
I am now just really fed up with feeling like this all the time, I feel a burdon to all my friends and feel that I just drive everyone mad with my constant asking for reassurance that I am fine and that I am worrying unnecessarily, please tell me I am not alone and help me try and stop these feelings, with some ideas.
I have a wonderful partner and three great children who I love dearly and I must stop these thoughts, I just try and tell myself why worry about things that aren't wrong but at the same time I don't believe there is nothing wrong and that is what is so hard. I am tired of the constant battle that goes on in my head, today I feel physically worn out and could shut my eyes and sleep - if I wasn't stressing over the feeling in my chest, I even feel sick too which just adds fuel to the fire!!
Any ideas or anyone who would like to chat please reply or PM me, this website is at least one place where there are people who feel the same.
Thanks for taking the time to read.
S