Haulden
18-04-23, 21:49
So I’ve been really great at coping with everything for a long while now. I’ve moved house, changed jobs, been to social events, travelled and everything has been great.
Tomorrow, I’m supposed to be at an all day work conference, I’ve travelled to london from home in Edinburgh and had an explore of the city and a few quiet drinks with my kindle in hand.
I literally cannot face the idea of the conference tomorrow, it’s a free event and a lot of it is social based and networking. I’ve been having nausea, sweats, the whole shebang and I’m really thinking I shouldn’t push myself to go as I think I’ll struggle all day but I’m so annoyed at myself. Fallen at the final hurdle.
Work aren't aware of my anxiety as it’s never come up in this role so I feel a bit helpless. I know they’d be fine as they are very pro mental health but I don’t want to admit I expensed a train and a hotel, was fine swann8ng around london but couldn’t face a conference for 8 hours.
Tomorrow, I’m supposed to be at an all day work conference, I’ve travelled to london from home in Edinburgh and had an explore of the city and a few quiet drinks with my kindle in hand.
I literally cannot face the idea of the conference tomorrow, it’s a free event and a lot of it is social based and networking. I’ve been having nausea, sweats, the whole shebang and I’m really thinking I shouldn’t push myself to go as I think I’ll struggle all day but I’m so annoyed at myself. Fallen at the final hurdle.
Work aren't aware of my anxiety as it’s never come up in this role so I feel a bit helpless. I know they’d be fine as they are very pro mental health but I don’t want to admit I expensed a train and a hotel, was fine swann8ng around london but couldn’t face a conference for 8 hours.