Munki
11-05-23, 15:11
At 47, I've reached that time when I feel that I need to find a new tribe.
I've always had good friends and I still do, but, as it goes, we only tend to meet for daytime coffees and the odd special occasion nowadays.
I've always had major issues surrounding friendships and therapy has kind of taught me that they stem back to being the 'extra' friend to a toxic duo. I never felt like I fit in at school, and always had a kind of lonely feel. It's stayed with me, despite having wonderful friends at sixth form and drama school.
Bank holidays this month are HARD! I see friends all going out an getting drunk and thats the problem, my hubby and I aren't into that anymore (we are hard party people back in the day and now like the cleaner life!) We do lovely stuff with the dogs an often go away in our camper van, by no means are we unpopular.
So why can't I shake that eternal feeling of being the only kid not invited to the party? I don't even want to go to the party! I just feel constantly lonely.
Nothing to do with friends, perhaps...
I've always had good friends and I still do, but, as it goes, we only tend to meet for daytime coffees and the odd special occasion nowadays.
I've always had major issues surrounding friendships and therapy has kind of taught me that they stem back to being the 'extra' friend to a toxic duo. I never felt like I fit in at school, and always had a kind of lonely feel. It's stayed with me, despite having wonderful friends at sixth form and drama school.
Bank holidays this month are HARD! I see friends all going out an getting drunk and thats the problem, my hubby and I aren't into that anymore (we are hard party people back in the day and now like the cleaner life!) We do lovely stuff with the dogs an often go away in our camper van, by no means are we unpopular.
So why can't I shake that eternal feeling of being the only kid not invited to the party? I don't even want to go to the party! I just feel constantly lonely.
Nothing to do with friends, perhaps...