chatty girl
24-05-23, 16:28
I did something about three weeks ago that I regret immensely, I had oral on both sides with a guy I know and have known for a around 2 years. But we are both attached. I know some of you will want to voice your judgement but trust me I'm beating myself up everyday for what happened.
Inside I'm absolutely terrified. I saw him on a Sunday, he was pretty rough inside me, it wasn't in a bad way, the Monday after I started to feel like I needed to wee often but there wasn't much there. I tried to pretend it wasn't a problem, Thursday I developed white spots on one tonsil that spread a little. I've had tonsillitis lots so guessed that was what it was. I went to the walk in the following Saturday (Kings coronation) they tested mu urine and said white blood cells and protine, they put me on nitrofurantoin. The more I thought the more scarred o got so under doctors instructions about 5 days later I had a full STI check and did another urine sample for them to send off while I was put back on nitrofurantoin again. The STI tests all came back negative. My urine sample was inconclusive, showed red/white blood cells but they couldn't grow anything from it. So I had to repeat it, when I did this time I noticed lots of white bits floating around in it. I've never noticed those before. Anyway, I got called in to doctors and it showed the same. She put me on another antibiotic sachet thing and wants me to re test this Friday.
I'm absolutely terrified I've got bladder cancer now! I'm constantly checking my wee and there are these white bits floating in it all the time! Now I don't know if the urge to wee more often is in my head or real!!! I feel like I'm going nuts, why would there be the cells if they can't grow anything. One part of me says he has done something or given me something but then a massive part is saying bladder cancer. I got the impression of the next test comes back same I will be referred to the specialist. I can't talk to anyone about it which I know is my own fault but I'm scarred. So scarred. Can anyone relate
Thanks for reading
Inside I'm absolutely terrified. I saw him on a Sunday, he was pretty rough inside me, it wasn't in a bad way, the Monday after I started to feel like I needed to wee often but there wasn't much there. I tried to pretend it wasn't a problem, Thursday I developed white spots on one tonsil that spread a little. I've had tonsillitis lots so guessed that was what it was. I went to the walk in the following Saturday (Kings coronation) they tested mu urine and said white blood cells and protine, they put me on nitrofurantoin. The more I thought the more scarred o got so under doctors instructions about 5 days later I had a full STI check and did another urine sample for them to send off while I was put back on nitrofurantoin again. The STI tests all came back negative. My urine sample was inconclusive, showed red/white blood cells but they couldn't grow anything from it. So I had to repeat it, when I did this time I noticed lots of white bits floating around in it. I've never noticed those before. Anyway, I got called in to doctors and it showed the same. She put me on another antibiotic sachet thing and wants me to re test this Friday.
I'm absolutely terrified I've got bladder cancer now! I'm constantly checking my wee and there are these white bits floating in it all the time! Now I don't know if the urge to wee more often is in my head or real!!! I feel like I'm going nuts, why would there be the cells if they can't grow anything. One part of me says he has done something or given me something but then a massive part is saying bladder cancer. I got the impression of the next test comes back same I will be referred to the specialist. I can't talk to anyone about it which I know is my own fault but I'm scarred. So scarred. Can anyone relate
Thanks for reading