Stressed32
30-05-23, 17:44
Hi guys-
I need some help that works! As you see in my username- I started w HA when I was 32 years old after a tragic and traumatic loss of a baby (I know I have trauma here but can't seem to get past it maybe??). This is ruining my life and robbing me of my happiness.
I have my moments where HA is not as "loud" and others where it is so loud I can't hardly function. However- it always lives here no matter what and holy crap if ANY physical sensation (something as simple as a bug bite) gets my attention....here we go! I have literally tried everything and thrown SO much money at this! I have done CBT, talk therapy, hypnosis, meditation, CBD oil, THC oil (this works for a short time and takes the edge off), Neuro feedback machines, medication (wellbutruin) all hormone and medical testing thinking maybe it was medical (thyroid etc.) since this has been so persistent- nothing works! I do feel this is worse around ovulation and my period but it still lives here. I do have Hashimoto thyroid and I know anxiety is related to this but my medication is optimal and I eat cleaner than anyone I know (almost to a point of being obsessive over it).
I do not have physical anxiety for the most part in terms of "panic attacks" but I am sure the stress causes some bodily sensations- my HA is primarily mental looping thoughts that DO NOT SHUT UP. The only way I can describe this is it is like a song that gets stuck in my mind and NEVER stops until one day- it vanishes as quickly as it came on. In the throws of my issues- I get SO focused on a symptom and the thought about checking it does not stop. I have been told I have OCD because I can NOT stop body checking. I have tried the CBD strategies of checking only at certain times etc. none of that worked for me! I can't not do it once the thought comes into my head. The more I try to make myself not think about XX symptom, the stronger the urge and thoughts get. The more I pray (I have been told to pray- HA that does not work!!!) the louder the thought. The more I try to distract myself- the louder it gets and more persistent. It is like I have this monster in me controlling my brain!!
I have seen SO many doctors and counselors and tried so many things- nothing helps and a 1 hour therapy session is not enough to fix me. I found this course online but wanted to see if any of you have taken this. It Is 349 US dollars and frankly, I am sick of paying money on things that do not help.
https://the-anxiety-cure.com/videocourse/
The course here on this forum was helpful in that it did help me to see the physical symptoms I have sometimes were because of the anxiety- but I have graduated to physical symptoms that have nothing at all to do w HA (like lines in my fingernails that in my mind are melanoma) and I have also graduated to worrying that the simplest of things (like a fever w my child) w my loved ones are a death sentence. My head typically goes to cancer- but even when it does not- it ALWAYS goes to worse case scenario. Help! I need something that will actually work for me! Please....... ANY AND ALL TIPS WELCOMED
I need some help that works! As you see in my username- I started w HA when I was 32 years old after a tragic and traumatic loss of a baby (I know I have trauma here but can't seem to get past it maybe??). This is ruining my life and robbing me of my happiness.
I have my moments where HA is not as "loud" and others where it is so loud I can't hardly function. However- it always lives here no matter what and holy crap if ANY physical sensation (something as simple as a bug bite) gets my attention....here we go! I have literally tried everything and thrown SO much money at this! I have done CBT, talk therapy, hypnosis, meditation, CBD oil, THC oil (this works for a short time and takes the edge off), Neuro feedback machines, medication (wellbutruin) all hormone and medical testing thinking maybe it was medical (thyroid etc.) since this has been so persistent- nothing works! I do feel this is worse around ovulation and my period but it still lives here. I do have Hashimoto thyroid and I know anxiety is related to this but my medication is optimal and I eat cleaner than anyone I know (almost to a point of being obsessive over it).
I do not have physical anxiety for the most part in terms of "panic attacks" but I am sure the stress causes some bodily sensations- my HA is primarily mental looping thoughts that DO NOT SHUT UP. The only way I can describe this is it is like a song that gets stuck in my mind and NEVER stops until one day- it vanishes as quickly as it came on. In the throws of my issues- I get SO focused on a symptom and the thought about checking it does not stop. I have been told I have OCD because I can NOT stop body checking. I have tried the CBD strategies of checking only at certain times etc. none of that worked for me! I can't not do it once the thought comes into my head. The more I try to make myself not think about XX symptom, the stronger the urge and thoughts get. The more I pray (I have been told to pray- HA that does not work!!!) the louder the thought. The more I try to distract myself- the louder it gets and more persistent. It is like I have this monster in me controlling my brain!!
I have seen SO many doctors and counselors and tried so many things- nothing helps and a 1 hour therapy session is not enough to fix me. I found this course online but wanted to see if any of you have taken this. It Is 349 US dollars and frankly, I am sick of paying money on things that do not help.
https://the-anxiety-cure.com/videocourse/
The course here on this forum was helpful in that it did help me to see the physical symptoms I have sometimes were because of the anxiety- but I have graduated to physical symptoms that have nothing at all to do w HA (like lines in my fingernails that in my mind are melanoma) and I have also graduated to worrying that the simplest of things (like a fever w my child) w my loved ones are a death sentence. My head typically goes to cancer- but even when it does not- it ALWAYS goes to worse case scenario. Help! I need something that will actually work for me! Please....... ANY AND ALL TIPS WELCOMED