chatty girl
31-05-23, 10:52
Oh I'm in a mess. A real mess. It's a long story but I'm absolutely convinced now I have bladder cancer. All started about 4-5 weeks ago after rough oral inside me, then urgency to pee, dip said showed white cells and protine. Given antibiotics nitrofurantoin x2, three samples sent to lab have come back with red blood cells but no bacteria. Given another antibiotic something beginning with F in a sachet.
Re did urine test yesterday but fully expecting blood again, guess then referral to urologist and scan. I don't know if the urgency to wee is still there for real or in my head. Also my wee has lots of white stuff floating in it like tissue paper almost. I told the doc but she wasn't bothered about that.
I'm in a dark place. It's half term and my boy is here, all I want to do is cry. In fact I did yesterday when I got the text from the docs at the zoo and I ruined his day and we left.
Does anyone ever just think maybe not being here would be better, for you and everyone. I'm so tired of being me.
xx
Re did urine test yesterday but fully expecting blood again, guess then referral to urologist and scan. I don't know if the urgency to wee is still there for real or in my head. Also my wee has lots of white stuff floating in it like tissue paper almost. I told the doc but she wasn't bothered about that.
I'm in a dark place. It's half term and my boy is here, all I want to do is cry. In fact I did yesterday when I got the text from the docs at the zoo and I ruined his day and we left.
Does anyone ever just think maybe not being here would be better, for you and everyone. I'm so tired of being me.
xx