Needing a hug again

[Pkstracy]

My mom passed away June 29th, I am numb and feel so lost right now.

[Darksky]

So very, very sorry to read this. You must be feeling very raw.
Sending huge hugs your way. :hugs:

[Carnation]

I know you've been expecting this for some time but it's never easy to accept when it happens. Take it one day at a time while you grieve which is a natural response. Sending love through this difficult time. :hugs:

[BlueIris]

Huuuuuugs. Sending love and sympathy.

[Scass]

Very sorry for your loss. Hugs xx

[Pkstracy]

Thank you all so much, I am taking it one day at a time, and yes been expecting it for awhile but hearing the news just was hard. Right now I am dealing with anger, as the doctor had told us if mom had gotten in when she started having the headaches they could have removed the tumor and she would have been okay..I kept begging her to go get checked, she refused until it got really bad and she started forgetting things...by then it was too late.

[Carnation]

I can't believe the doctor said that to you, it serves no purpose to your mum or you. There will be reasons why for your mum too, bear that in mind.
I know it's a difficult time. You will feel anger, guilt, sadness, regret, emptiness, all natural feelings with grief.
It's still very early days. Have moments to yourself and take one day at a time. :hugs:

[Pkstracy]

Thank you all for your support and kind words, today has been the first day I have felt like doing anything. I've been curled up in bed a lot crying and then sleeping. Her birthday is coming up soon, oct 26th, she would have been 68..I miss her so much. hugs to you all.

[Carnation]

The first birthday and first Christmas are difficult ones but I will get easier. :hugs:

[Piano]

Lots of hugs for you [emoji8]


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[Pkstracy]

Thank you all for the hugs, oct 26th was hard for me I spent the day crying and missing my mom and even yesterday was hard as she loved halloween.

[Catkins]

:hugs:

[Carnation]

It takes time to deal with those feelings :hugs:

[Pkstracy]

I dont know how much more I can take, two days ago I got notice from a very good friend's husband, that he is in the hospital fighting for his life, they thought it was pneumonia but doctors now saying they aren't sure. Not responding to any of the normal treatments, can't breathe on his own, a team of specialist are coming in or did come in, I love both of those men to death, they have been more of a family than my own, and tomorrow my dog is going to the vet due to her eyes and and not eating and drinking a lot more water than normal. I am about to hit my breaking point, I can't do another death so soon after having three in 23.

[BlueIris]

Sending a whole world of hugs.

[Carnation]

PK, life hits you like this and the older you get the worse it gets. But it isn't always that way.
They may be a simple explanation for your dog, wait until you see the vet. I know there's the worry.
Big hugs from me too. :hugs:

[Pkstracy]

Blue Thank you. Carn, I know and it sucks, hugs you back hugs both You and Blue, I got an update, M (my friend that is in the hospital ) has improved somewhat, doctor said he isnt out of the woods yet, that it could change, they are running more tests on him tomorrow they still don't know what it is, I wish I could call in Dr. House for M.

[Pkstracy]

So got my dog into the vet, I thought I was just going to get some ointment for her eyes, not just her eyes, but we find out she has an enlarged heart, her kidney levels are elevated. that is why she is hardly eating, and snorting we got meds to give her for ten days and then we'll take her back in on the 22nd of this month to see if she has improved any, if not we may make the choice to have her put down.

[Carnation]

PK, a huge hug :bighug1:
You've been through so much and still manage to find more strength when needed. You are amazing!

[fishman65]

Bless you PK, you've been through such a lot :hugs: Much love to you xxx

[MyNameIsTerry]

Life is really kicking you at the moment, Tracy. I know from speaking to you recently just how strong you are and how you take on a very large emotional load to help others come through. Just getting through shows great strength and going even further to help others demonstrates even more. It may not feel like it at times but what's inside you keeps you going.

I also remember you have a great partner who will be there for you no matter what. So no matter how tough it gets you won't go through it alone. But I do hope everything gets better and your loved ones get better. :hugs::flowers:

[Pkstracy]

THanks Terry sorry I haven't been on to reply, been tending to a very sick dog who is going to the vet tomorrow and may have to be put down, I'll be surprised if she makes it by morning or the day after. My Friend is out of the hospital and his Pneumonia is almost gone, he is still very weak. I am trying so much Terry to be strong still, I haven't slept much, I really need to start taking care of myself, yes my husband does what he can to help me and be there for me but he can only do so much. It will be a relief when my pup does go, she is 13, this year will be 14. She isn't herself anymore and barely eats.

[Carnation]

PK you are amazing! With what you've gone through recently and dealing with. :hugs:

[Pkstracy]

THank you Carn, right now I am a sobbing mess, my girl was put to sleep this morning at nine am pst time.

[Carnation]

:bighug1:

[Pkstracy]

Carn thank you it's 2:32 in the morning and I am feeling so alone right now. I have been crying almost nonstop, the past six months have been so hard. I just want to have a break now please please can I have a break from all the death. Please....