darlene85
28-07-23, 01:57
This is insane but I haven't been to the doctor for my disease, Hashimoto, for seven years. I was too scared and then pandemic and I just couldn't convince myself because all that time I was convinced that they will tell me I am in the last stage of thyroid cancer. 2015. a doctor ordered some more test after an ultrasound but I never came back and I am sure that was cancer and it could be cured back then but seven years later I am probably dying.
I have no energy, I feel so exhausted all the time, I am deeply depressed and anxious. Right now I feel like I am dying, I can't move. I am also afraid that they will leave me at hospital, that it's so bad even if I don't have cancer and I've just got a new job and I can't go to hospital. I know I am being unreasonable and if I am that sick I will end up in hospital in the end but I don't know how to help myself. I just can't face my fears.
It's not just thyroid cancer I am worried about, I am convinced that I have every other imaginable cancer and I have those scenarios in my head for years. But thyroid is most obvious because something was suspicious on my ultrasound. I know people who died from thyroid cancer even though it's curable because they waited too long.
I have no energy, I feel so exhausted all the time, I am deeply depressed and anxious. Right now I feel like I am dying, I can't move. I am also afraid that they will leave me at hospital, that it's so bad even if I don't have cancer and I've just got a new job and I can't go to hospital. I know I am being unreasonable and if I am that sick I will end up in hospital in the end but I don't know how to help myself. I just can't face my fears.
It's not just thyroid cancer I am worried about, I am convinced that I have every other imaginable cancer and I have those scenarios in my head for years. But thyroid is most obvious because something was suspicious on my ultrasound. I know people who died from thyroid cancer even though it's curable because they waited too long.