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Catkins
02-09-23, 06:54
Nothing particularly has happened, I've had a month or so where I was feeling quite low and my husband has been having a particularly trying time with work, which despite my best efforts does effect me.

But the last couple of days I have felt awful. I have the most awful stomach pains, it feels like I have a hedgehog curled up in there. I'm taking more lansoprazole than normal to try and settle it, but it doesn't seem to be helping. My sleep is disrupted, I've been awake since 4 this morning. One minute I'm sweating profusely, the next minute I'm feeling really cold.


I do think that most of my symptoms are anxiety related. I'm trying to carry on as normal, but there's definitely some old negative thought patterns sneaking in there. The usual; I can't cope, how am I going to manage to do such and such. Uni starts back soon - do I really want to be doing it?


The weird thing is, I had a session with my counsellor earlier in the week and I don't know if I was having a serious case of denial, but I was telling her that I thought I was doing well and seemed to have come out of my low patch. Now I'm thinking about all the things I've got to do this week and feel totally overwhelmed (this includes our son coming home for a few days with his girlfriend on Wednesday which I had previously been looking forward to).

Carnation
02-09-23, 09:51
:hugs:
Isn't it annoying when you've been feeling good and doing ok then boom, you feel rotten again.
Could it pre anxiety nerves? And you know the brain will go into overdrive thinking all sorts.
What you describe could well be anxiety symptoms. Have you been doing your self care with meditation and calming techniques?
You might also think it's not anxiety, in which case that will also pass.
I know you won't want to put your son off from coming and it's likely you might feel better by then so don't dwell on that just yet. See how you go over the weekend. Get as much relaxation as you can. When you feel more up to it you will easily catch up on those house chores. As you are now it will just be a waste of energy that should be directed to yourself.
Have you got any chamomile tea? That's good for settling the tummy and calming. x

Catkins
02-09-23, 10:28
Thank you Carnation.


It is that annoying thing about feeling OK for a while, then wham you feel rotten again. I have been a bit slack on the meditation, although I do the 5 senses thing every morning and am continuing on doing yoga and swimming.


I'll definitely get some camomile tea when I'm out shopping, my appetite is a bit off too, so maybe I'll have to get some things to tempt me as well.


Who knows maybe I have got a bug? My go to is to blame anxiety, but I guess there is a chance it is some lurgy. I think I'll just try and take it easy the next couple of days and see how I get on.

BlueIris
02-09-23, 16:44
Sometimes it's way too easy to let things slip out of control, so don't be mad at yourself?

Carnation
02-09-23, 17:42
And it's way too easy to plant seeds in the brain.
I often used to feel I had the flu coming on when I it was just exhaustion.

Lencoboy
02-09-23, 17:53
Myself, my dad, my brother and quite a few others I know have actually felt a bit ropey ourselves over the past few days, all feeling a bit sniffly, sinusy and nauseous. Me and my dad also felt like it this time last year, but actually far worse with diarrhoea as well, which (touch wood), no signs of with us so far on this particular occasion.

But we're still far removed from our death beds though!

Catkins
02-09-23, 20:36
Thank you all. I bought some camomile tea, I haven't had any yet as I found some ginger tea and went with that. I think it did help a little.

Working on trying to not spiral into a Web of negative thoughts, which is a struggle at the moment, but hanging on in there.

Carnation
02-09-23, 21:09
Can you do some self care tomorrow catkins?
I've just been doing a bit of reflexology. It's a good stress release. Just rubbing and massaging your feet can have many benefits.

fishman65
03-09-23, 00:44
Hang in there Catkins, it’s quite probably a blip, a bump in the road that maybe suggests ‘slow down a little’.

I’ve always thought how well you do, so give yourself some real credit for that. However maybe some time focusing on your own needs is in order now and that’s not being selfish, you’ve earned it many times over ❤️

Catkins
03-09-23, 06:59
I am particularly bad at taking time out for myself. I have my routine stuff that I do, but I think I need to acknowledge that I sometimes need to do more. It's not always easy and I do have a habit of sorting others out first.

Carnation
03-09-23, 09:18
Putting yourself first is beneficial to all the other duties catkins. It took me a while to work that one out.

Catkins
03-09-23, 11:38
It's sometimes difficult to get my other half to understand.

Catkins
03-09-23, 12:06
Well blow me. I stepped out of here for a moment and decided to tell my other half how I've been feeling the last few days, he has been being belligerent all morning that we should be going on a long walk all morning because the weather is nice and got quite stroppy about it, which in turn made me feel all anxious. He was so good about it. He believes that because my stomach hasn't been right for a few days and that as serotonin is produced in the gut that this will have affected my mood. I don't know if that's true or if it's a which came first the chicken or the egg situation. Is my anxiety making me feel ill or am I ill so I feel anxious. Anyway not going to dwell on that too much. He's decided it might be better for us to do a shorter walk because of my sleeping problems (although I was the dog who had me up in the night last night).

Carnation
03-09-23, 12:24
It's sometimes difficult to get my other half to understand.
I have that too catkins :hugs:

I've had a funny tummy for a week now, on and off. I've put it down to anxiety because of past experiences.
As you know I've had women's problems and yesterday a migraine but I'm still associating the tummy issues with anxiety.
Mr C wants to go out whether I have anxiety or feel poorly.
I think they just don't want to acknowledge we get off days. If I don't go out he gets grumpy.

Catkins
03-09-23, 15:30
Yes I know that feeling all too well. Sometimes I really want to shout at him to bloody well go out if he wants to and leave me in peace, but other times I know it'll do me good to get out so I go along willingly. Today, because I'm feeling anxious I had neither the enthusiasm to go or confidence in my abilities to say no. So cutting a bit off was probably a good compromise. So we walked 4 miles instead of about 7. Did I feel anxiety free, no, but it was a pleasant walk with a Fentimans rose lemonade and a cheese scone half way round. In the last 1/2 mile I was tempted to ask him to go and get the car and come back for me and the dog, but I carried on and made it. The dog made it too, although she is very tired now, she had a bit of my scone too.

Carnation
03-09-23, 20:15
Well done for your achievements catkins.
Sometimes it's better to opt for a quieter life or should I say avoid confrontation.

Catkins
04-09-23, 17:32
Well done for your achievements catkins.
Sometimes it's better to opt for a quieter life or should I say avoid confrontation.
I probably have opted too much for a quieter life of late, which may well be why I'm feeling a bit delicate. I think I had it in my head that I should be giving lots of attention to my husband in the uni holidays to make up for all the time I spent studying during term time where I couldn't.


Anyway there's no point in me dwelling too much on why I'm feeling off, if I question it too much things just go round in circles. I'm just going to work hard on the acceptance part as much as I can.


This morning was quite tough, I went up to shadow at a musculoskeletalclinic with a podiatrist that's a specialist in MSK. Didn't sleep too bad, I wasn't woken by the dog and although I did wake up in the night I went back to sleep and didn't wake up until about 5.45. But because I was anxious about going I only managed a very small breakfast. Anyway I negotiated my way through the city traffic intact and got to the clinic. I was very wobbly and sweaty, it was very hot in the hospital but I managed to get to the clinic. Fortunately the MSK podiatrist worked in our dept straight from college (he's since done his masters and is on with his PHD), so although I didn't know him well one of the first things I said to him was how nervous I was about coming. He was so good, he just laughed it off and said there was really no need. I got through the morning by drinking copious amounts of cold water and I'd packed an emergency biscuit. I did blank on most of the questions he asked me which was tough, but we talked about it between patients and I explained I have a tendency to do that and he said that it's just practice. Overall, even though I felt really anxious throughout the clinic I really learnt a lot, I have got some good pointers on things that I need to learn more about and revise and I would happily go again (maybe happily is a not quite the right word). Do I feel full of vim and vigour and as calm as a lake on a summers day, no, but I am feeling a sense of achievement and shall be patting myself on the back this evening.

Carnation
04-09-23, 17:59
Wow catkins, you did amazing!
You should be proud and deserve a treat.

Fishmanpa
04-09-23, 18:24
Hang in there Catkins, it’s quite probably a blip, a bump in the road that maybe suggests ‘slow down a little’.

I’ve always thought how well you do, so give yourself some real credit for that. However maybe some time focusing on your own needs is in order now and that’s not being selfish, you’ve earned it many times over ❤️

Agreed. Regardless of one's mental health, experiences, situations and circumstances can throw a monkey wrench into the peace of mind gears. Pat yourself on the back for pushing through and treat yourself. May I suggest an ice cream smoothie? :yesyes:

My wife took a banana, strawberries and blueberries along with some ice and made fruit smoothies. Poured that in a glass with a couple of scoops of vanilla ice cream and YUM! :D Just a suggestion :winks:

FMP

Catkins
05-09-23, 05:23
Thank you both.

That sounds lovely FMP, my tummy is still a little iffy and my appetite isn't up to much but once it is I will give that a go.

Carnation
05-09-23, 08:44
My tummy is off too catkins.
I find not having too long a gap between meals helps. x

Catkins
05-09-23, 17:00
Definitely, small and frequent.

Catkins
06-09-23, 17:35
Well today was another day I was anxious about. Travelling in someone else's car to an all day meeting. My stomach was up to it's usual anxiety antics this morning, so I took plenty of water with me in case it continued. I reassured myself that I would be fine an awful lot and that I wouldn't be stranded in the little town it was held in should I suddenly become a complete mess. I used lots of distraction/relaxation techniques (predominantly breathing) and I made it through the whole meeting. I did have a few moments that I could quite happily of left the room, but I stuck with it and made it through the day. Another pat on the back.

Carnation
06-09-23, 18:51
Definitely a pat on the back for that one catkins.
That was a lot to contend with. Well done catkins :yesyes:

Catkins
07-09-23, 06:22
Thank you.

Catkins
26-02-24, 05:43
Well after doing well for quite a while, I'm having a blip. I'm thinking that the stress of my course, winter, having the kitchen done, having problems with my knees and life in general has just got to me a bit. My lovely but elderly dog isn't helping either, with her frequent night crying and asking to go out in the middle of the night.

I think I'm feeling overwhelmed with everything. This year the uni work has been all consuming, there's so much of it and I'm struggling to keep up. I have an exam on the 20th and really don't know how I'm going to do it. My husband started moving our kitchen last October, and although I'm really appreciative that he's doing it (I've wanted a bigger kitchen for years) I'm done with the chaos, I feel I just need some calm in the house. He is doing it in his spare time which is why it's taking a while. My knees (patella tendon strain and twisted meniscus) have stopped me doing things physically that I want to and my meditation has been erratic which helps me relax.

This sounds like an enormous moan and I guess it is. But anxiety is hitting me hard at the moment this last night has been tough, the dog waking me up, not being able to get back to sleep because of anxious thoughts. My usual habit of reading to calm me down's not working has left me feeling completely frazzled and knackered. The thought of having to get through the day is frightening (thankfully I have a day off).

I'm not sure what to do with myself.

BlueIris
26-02-24, 06:04
What you have to do is forgive yourself. This happens to all of us, so you need to show yourself some grace and accept that you're feeling anxious right now and it will pass.

Your exam is nearly a month away, so it's not a now problem. Things could be very different by then.

Sending positive vibes - message me if you ever want to chat. I sympathise on the pet thing, too, was out last night, came home late and went to bed an hour later and the cat started making these weird sobbing noises outside the bedroom door. She's not elderly, though, just spoiled and desperate for attention ;)

Catkins
26-02-24, 07:09
Thank you BI, I know it's going to be a tough day today as I've been up since before 4. I'll try and pace myself.

I know I've been doing too much lately and just trying to carry on when I shouldn't. Even going to yoga has become less pleasurable and something I feel I have to go to instead of something I want to do. In fact most things have become less pleasurable, it's like everything I do is controlling me rather than me doing what I want to do, even the good things if that makes sense.


Forgiving myself isn't an easy thing, I was even a little embarrassed to mention getting a new kitchen because I know I'm extremely lucky to be getting one and feel I shouldn't complain. I just don't cope well with change I guess.


My dog has given me so much pleasure over the years and I honestly am dreading when she goes, but the relentless waking up in the night is so exhausting and with anxiety kicking in and stopping me going back to sleep has made it difficult. Pets are wonderful though, just a pain in the arse sometimes.

Catkins
26-02-24, 07:12
Another thing is I've said that I'll go away with some friends in August. Now I'm thinking I shouldn't, that I won't cope. I guess it's just part of everything just spinning round in my head. FFS it's 6 months away. What a twit!

BlueIris
26-02-24, 07:34
August is a decent way away, you can file that under things you don't need to worry about yet.

I'm quietly dying today because I accidentally insulted my husband's favourite comedian to his (the comedian's) face last night. Normally I go silent and shake in front of famous people, but tonight I was uncharacteristically eloquent when he began telling me about a record shop in 80s Birmingham and I was interested, but explained it was a bit before my time.

THE SHAME.

Catkins
26-02-24, 07:40
LOL you probably gave him some good material for a future show - he might even appreciate it!

BlueIris
26-02-24, 07:47
He was incredibly gracious about it, a thoroughly good guy. I'm also very proud of myself because I worried about getting home late on a worknight, but I didn't tell my husband that if we got into the merch queue we'd have to wait half an hour for the next bus home.

We got a cab back, anyway :)

Lencoboy
26-02-24, 08:38
Even going to yoga has become less pleasurable and something I feel I have to go to instead of something I want to do. In fact most things have become less pleasurable, it's like everything I do is controlling me rather than me doing what I want to do, even the good things if that makes sense.

That's exactly how I feel about many things of late; I often perceive them to be more of a chore in advance than a pleasure.

I think my dad feels very similar too.

I think a fair amount of 'whatiffery' comes into it too.

Lencoboy
26-02-24, 09:24
I was even a little embarrassed to mention getting a new kitchen because I know I'm extremely lucky to be getting one and feel I shouldn't complain. I just don't cope well with change I guess.

Another issue I can totally relate to.

As well as all the inevitable mess, chaos and disruption (obviously) caused by all the work while it's in progress, perhaps you might feel some kind of emotional attachment deep down to your existing kitchen, especially if it's been a constant in your life for many years and it probably feels like the 'end of an era', even if the changes are ultimately intended for the better, especially in the long run.

One example for me personally was back in 1994 my parents replaced our mid 80s Sony Trinitron TV with a then-up-to-date model, while technically superior in most ways (especially Teletext capabilities and also those then-newlyfangled SCART connections, all of which the old mid 80s model lacked), I struggled to warm to it aesthetically, especially as the previous set that we had ever since we first moved into our current address in 1985 had been a constant ever since, even though I was never really that interested in watching the box myself a lot of the time back then, plus it was our first 'posh' TV set and also owned by my parents outright, unlike previous sets that were rented.

I think these emotional attachments to even some of the most mundane of things in our lives is actually far more prevalent than a lot of us realise.

I suppose there's also the ever-present concerns about things possibly going wrong with 'replacements'; a kind of 'fear of the unknown' and of course 'whatiffery', be it a new kitchen, TV set, or whatever.

Carnation
26-02-24, 10:22
Hi catkins,

Everything you said sounds so familiar.
It is a case of feeling overwhelmed.
You can never do too much, it's how you feel at the time when things are going on. You've told yourself, it's too much. Yes, a kitchen change is an upheaval but remind yourself it's for the better and something you want. Never feel embarrass about having something that is going to improve your life for the better and give you a sense of satisfaction. You are also adapting to change and while this is going on, adapt your meals so they are easier on yourself. Save the cordon bleu for the new finished kitchen. It will be wonderful when it's all done.
Animals can disrupt our sleep. Our cat does that most nights and it can make you feel tired during the day. Lol, it's a bit like having a baby. But I think, I'd rather have my cat with all the attention seeking than not because he's given me so much comfort over the years when I needed it and got me out of bed on days when I haven't felt like it.
A power nap during the day can do wonders and if you can't nap then just close your eyes for 5 minutes and breath slowly in and out.
I'm thinking the crux of the situation at the moment is your exam looming and BlueIris is right, it's a month away. You've managed very well up til now and you need to feel more confident about your abilities to succeed.
As for the stuff that normally helps you. I get that, so maybe something new. At the moment I am into the electron thing. I go outside, wrapped up because it's cold, sit on a seat and take my footwear off and put my bare feet on the ground for just a few minutes. It's cold but invigorating but it gives us energy. The connection gives the body what it needs and that is mostly energy!
Your normal stuff isn't working because you are approaching it with stress to begin with and yet another thing to do. Like the yoga. You don't have to go all the time and maybe if you skipped a session you might be more keen to go next time.
Another tip. Slow down. You actually achieve more by going slower and it helps the brain heaps.
Blip, bad patch, relapse, exhaustion, whatever you want to call it, it's just temporary and an opportunity to allow your body and mind to recharge. Give your brain a holiday and your body will thank you for it.

BlueIris, comedians are used to such comments and I personally don't think you insulted or upset the guy. Lol, you must have felt comfortable to have said that and well done for going. If it was Micky Flanagan he would have loved it.

Catkins
26-02-24, 10:24
It's weird Lenco, I really wanted the kitchen (have done so for 20 something years). It's being moved from a very tiny room into a much better sized room that we can fit a table in. I have saved up for years to get it, so long that my original budget (based on a quote) was totally unrealistic. Which is why my husband has been doing it all in his spare time, including plumbing.

I think I just find it incredibly unsettling things being in disarray - I'm not a tidy person by any means but because it's a terraced house of small rooms, stuff is everywhere. It didn't help that I fell down a large hole in the kitchen floor the other week. I know it'll be worth it in the end, but I think when I get anxious I need things to feel a little ordered and they don't just now.


I know what you mean about feeling attached to things, I'm not sure it's the case with the kitchen, but I have definitely felt it with other things.

Catkins
26-02-24, 10:46
Thank you Carnation. I think you are right about approaching things with stress so that it becomes another chore to do. I think it's definitely become that with yoga. The class is quite high energy at times and very strenuous which has been really difficult with my knees. I think in my head it's become something I feel I have to do rather than something I'm getting pleasure from. In reality I don't have to go, to be honest the time of the class is not great it's 7.30-9 and it always runs over so I'm often not home until 9.30 and it takes me ages to settle afterwards. I was looking at alternative classes that are shorter and a bit more gentle, also on a different night as the night it's on isn't great either. I might try that as I do love doing yoga and when I'm not finding it a chore it really does help.

I do agree I need to slow down and rather than not working the meditation might work if I actually did it. A friend was talking about the barefoot thing the other day I might google that.

Carnation
26-02-24, 11:28
Yoga shouldn't be seen as strenuous. The thing with classes is they progress. Instead of going for a weekly unwind and muscle relaxant they can become a programme of more difficult positions and exercises that are just too much. An hour and a half is an incredibly long time to be cavorting your body when you already feel tired and overwhelmed.
If you didn't go, would you miss it? Have you made friends there? Has it been beneficial to you?
Personally I think the time should be cut in half and maybe a more mind, body, spirit approach with yoga is probably more beneficial. What's your thoughts on Tai Chi, that's another option.
I do a mixture of yoga and tai chi at home and I have bad knees (which are improving with the exercises).
I'm not keen on the idea of classes for several reasons.
The time of the class is normally around my dinnertime.
The having to be social bit.
Being tied to it to a certain extent.
Possibly not being able to do some of it.
Now if it was in some woodland area with part shade or a beach as the sun comes down, then I would be more tempted. :winks:

Catkins
26-02-24, 12:38
I do like the feeling of being part of a class, but I think this one is just too much for me. The previous kundalini class I went to she purposely kept it quite light and I really enjoyed it. This one is perhaps just a little too full on for me. I think I'll email about this other class which I think was hatha.


Just watched the last few episodes of One Day on Netflix, if anyone needs to get out some emotions this will definitely do it.


Also have looked up the barefoot electron thing. It really does sound like it does a lot of good, might try it in my back yard - unfortunately no grass or soil (except pots), but it might help anyway.

Lencoboy
26-02-24, 14:14
August is a decent way away, you can file that under things you don't need to worry about yet.

I'm quietly dying today because I accidentally insulted my husband's favourite comedian to his (the comedian's) face last night. Normally I go silent and shake in front of famous people, but tonight I was uncharacteristically eloquent when he began telling me about a record shop in 80s Birmingham and I was interested, but explained it was a bit before my time.

THE SHAME.

Jasper Carrott?

Catkins
26-02-24, 14:26
Booked a different, shorter yoga class on a better night. Feel slightly guilty about it, I messaged the tutor from the one I was going to and said my knees were bothering me and I was overloaded with uni work so I was takinga break, which is true. But she replied and said the class was there whenever I needed it, which made me feel rotten for going to a different class, but it is for the best, I know it is. Things aren't going to improve much with my dog so I've got to moderate other things to accommodate her. Plus it's important to pace myself a bit more. If I don't get pleasure from the class, I don't have to go again.

I think one of the things I was struggling with is that I try and go and see friends on a Monday night and the class was on a Tuesday, so I was back to back with things. It's really important for me to stay in touch with friends so having what felt like the full evening out on a Tuesday as well is a bit too much really. It just wore me out.

Catkins
26-02-24, 14:27
I hope I'm making sense and not rambling too much.

Lencoboy
26-02-24, 14:46
Thank you Carnation. I think you are right about approaching things with stress so that it becomes another chore to do. I think it's definitely become that with yoga. The class is quite high energy at times and very strenuous which has been really difficult with my knees. I think in my head it's become something I feel I have to do rather than something I'm getting pleasure from. In reality I don't have to go, to be honest the time of the class is not great it's 7.30-9 and it always runs over so I'm often not home until 9.30 and it takes me ages to settle afterwards. I was looking at alternative classes that are shorter and a bit more gentle, also on a different night as the night it's on isn't great either. I might try that as I do love doing yoga and when I'm not finding it a chore it really does help.

I do agree I need to slow down and rather than not working the meditation might work if I actually did it. A friend was talking about the barefoot thing the other day I might google that.

Also sounds like 'fear of failure' to me.

Me and my dad will be involved in the sound for a live act at a theatre in Leicestershire this weekend, and my dad who for many years previously did such things fearlessly with relative ease and confidence (and has also been involved with the same artistes on and off for some 40-odd years) but seems to be rather apprehensive about the whole thing of late, especially in case something might go horribly wrong.

Even simply getting from A to B (including something as inconsequential in the grand scheme of things as say, a trip to somewhere like B & Q) can be quite emotionally draining for us both with plenty of 'whatiffery' kicking in once again (e.g, 'what if we get stuck in mammoth traffic queues to and/or from there? ', 'what if there are massive queues at the checkouts in store X or Y, or both?',
and the same applying to me whenever I attend my day centre (e.g, 'what if the train is late or even cancelled at the eleventh hour?', 'what if adverse weather conditions or any other 'untoward' events suddenly arise all out of the blue that might imperil or complicate my journey there and back?', etc, especially owing to a lot of the recent rail strikes and the general staff shortages within said profession.

And the worst of it all is that most other people just appear to take a lot of such chaos and uncertainty for granted these days and seem to just take it on the chin as a mere 'fact of modern-day life' without question.

Carnation
26-02-24, 15:28
Makes perfect sense catkins and well done on making that move. See, there's one thing you've sorted out already.
The ground does work for electrons. Obviously grass or the earth is better, as well as sand on the beach, but it's the vibration you need. I do it when I'm sitting on the patio (slabs), grass is too wet and muddy right now.
You can also get the electrons from touching trees or standing on their roots, (they don't mind, quite happy to give).

Catkins
26-02-24, 15:58
I went off and read a really interesting article about it. It was saying about heath benefits as well as psychological ones. They also mentioned using a grounding patch with a bit of wire in (not sure how it works) stuck to your chest, I think I prefer the foot method.

Carnation
26-02-24, 16:41
I've seen something like that with the wire catkins but I wouldn't fancy doing that.
Did you know plants respond to birdsong? It's all fascinating stuff.

Catkins
26-02-24, 18:23
I've seen something like that with the wire catkins but I wouldn't fancy doing that.
Did you know plants respond to birdsong? It's all fascinating stuff.
Honestly the most wonderful part of my day is when I take the dog out and hear birdsong, if it makes me feel good, I can understand plants appreciating it.

Lencoboy
26-02-24, 20:21
Honestly the most wonderful part of my day is when I take the dog out and hear birdsong, if it makes me feel good, I can understand plants appreciating it.

You can't beat a bit of birdsong Catkins. Great music to the ears.

No longer having a dog also makes me miss a lot of the daily walks I used to take him on around our estate.

It was also a bit of 'me time' to think in the fresh air at the same time, what with enjoying the aforementioned sound of the birds and admiring other people's lovely gardens, etc.

Catkins
28-02-24, 06:18
Well today is uni day and I must admit I'm feeling anxious about it. The thought of sitting through 4 hours of lectures (via zoom) seems like a huge mountain to climb. The dog woke me up just after 5, so although I feel tired I did have quite a good stretch of sleep and I've been stretching to try and relax my muscles a bit, also sat on the steps with barefoot while the dog went for a wee.

My husband took her to the vets yesterday about her leaking bladder, they have given her some tablets to try and help. I don't think it will stop her waking me up, but it will stop her having little accidents when she's asleep.

I'm trying hard to be positive at the moment, which isn't an easy task but yesterday wasn't too bad, so that's a positive.

BlueIris
28-02-24, 07:35
Thinking of you; hope your classes go well today.

YoullNeverWalkAlone
28-02-24, 08:51
Good luck for today Catkins, I’m sure everything will be fine, just pace yourself and try and relax your whole body as much as you can, no sitting at the computer wearing your shoulders for earrings.
Im going to have to try this barefoot thing, better when the grass dries and you can walk barefoot over that...
:bighug1:

Carnation
28-02-24, 09:09
Just be yourself and remember feeling nervous on such an event is normal, so don't overthink how you feel.
You are a bright and capable person and you'll get through this.

Catkins
28-02-24, 15:31
Thank you all. It was a long stretch, but despite being convinced I was going to cry a couple of times and feeling incredibly anxious at points I didn't throw my hands in the air shout out 'I can't do this anymore'.

YNWA - I have to admit my shoulders are most definitely becoming attached to my ears at the moment, I'm really working on relaxing them.


We had a couple of group case studies to discuss in breakout rooms and in one we were discussing how we feel about the course just now. I'm not alone feeling so shit about it, apparently it's quite common in the second year. Doesn't make me feel any less anxious but it is reassuring that I'm not alone.

This afternoon I have been working on a revision plan and started my revision from the beginning again, hopefully I'm looking at it in a slightly more organised fashion instead of flapping. We'll see. I'll get back to rheumatoid arthritis in a minute.

Carnation
28-02-24, 17:53
Well done catkins :yesyes:

As I was reading the 'wearing the shoulders as earrings' I realised I actually was myself, lol.

Catkins, you managed today, you've changed your yoga class and the barefoot sitting on a step is your refuelling.
Improvements already.

Catkins
28-02-24, 18:03
Well I've just had a difficult conversation with the vet. They prescribed some pills for our dog yesterday to help with her leaky bladder and they asked us to take a pee sample in today. Well the vet just phoned up to give us the results, nothing untoward in the pee sample, but her pee is too dilute so they said her kidneys aren't working effectively. This didn't alarm me too much as last year they said her kidneys weren't great. So I asked what we do next and she said a blood test to see how bad they were now, so I asked if I should book her now for that and the vet said we could keep her on these pills for a couple of weeks, see how she gets on, then do the blood test and consider quality of life for her. I was OK until they said 'quality of life' as that to me just means one thing. Feeling very lost and sad now. She can be a pain in the bum but she's my little furry friend.

Catkins
28-02-24, 18:26
Well done catkins 


As I was reading the 'wearing the shoulders as earrings' I realised I actually was myself, lol.


Catkins, you managed today, you've changed your yoga class and the barefoot sitting on a step is your refuelling.
Improvements already.


My shoulders are right buggers.


Although the vet phone call has really upset me, I do think overall I'm going in the right direction. II'll keep at it.

Carnation
28-02-24, 19:53
As a pet owner all my life and a little experience in animals in general, I use my own judgement when it comes to decisions. You will know when your pet is suffering and has little quality of life. I don't think you are at this stage right now. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't see an animal suffer but at the same time, I would be reluctant to rush into any decision I felt was wrong or not needed.
You know your own pet better than anybody and sometimes an adjustment in diet or some treatment can help matters tremendously.
Catkins, vets are like doctors, they don't always consider someone's emotions and they are sometimes more blunt than they should be. :hugs:

Catkins
29-02-24, 05:14
I think you're right Carnation, we're going to wait and see.

Lencoboy
29-02-24, 13:48
I can relate totally to what you're going through right now Catkins.

We have been through the same ordeal with all of the dogs we have had over the years; most recently last October (2023) when our last dog was PTS as he had developed severe epilepsy and in the end was having seizures several times per day (and night), and a mutual agreement was eventually reached by the vet, myself and my dad to have the dog PTS, mainly on the basis of QOL issues for both the dog and us.

Dead horrible at the time, of course, but at least the poor dog is now at peace, and was humanely PTS by the vet.

Catkins
29-02-24, 13:56
It's such a difficult situation Lenco, hoping she stays happy and not in pain a while longer. We're giving her a bit of time before the blood test and then take it from there.