GAY OCD

[TheArcher90]

I am a straight 33 year old woman who has crushed on men since around 5, dated men, crushed on boys at school. Occasionally ill see a pretty woman and think just that but now my OCD has latched onto the fear I'm gay or bisexuality because I saw a pretty girl on a train the other day and thought she had a good body. I'm now in mindset I find all women attractive. I have groinal responses too but I genuinely don't think I'd ever want to have sex with a woman or even romantic relationship.

Please help.

[Hypo84]

What exactly do you need help with? You can't be gay since you like men and you are a women so that is impossible.

You could be bisexual, but again, what do you need help with? You don't have to be with anyone you don't want to be, nobody is forcing you, so be with men and enjoy life.

[TheArcher90]

Because the idea of being lesbian or Bi seems abhorrent to me, I've never once thought this. I watch lesporn but always because it's more women focused rather than thinking I want to do that. I've never once watched it and thought yes that looks nice but now my OCD has latched onto this thought.

I even had a friend talk about their single male friend and my brain said "you like girls now"

It's making me feel awkward around pretty girls/women in general.

[Sparkling_Fairy]

It seems abhorrent to you? First of all, thats pretty appalling! Second of all: I think that pretty much indicates you're not.
I find women very attractive, I've always thought that. But I'm not attracted to them. There's a difference. I can't imagine myself sleeping with another woman (even though I don't find it in any way "abhorrent") so I know I'm straight.
That said: I want to make it very clear there is nothing wrong with being gay or bi. If I were, I'd be very out and proud about it!

[TheArcher90]

Abhorrent was the wrong word sorry for any offence caused. I mean it is something not me at all. I've never had crushes on girls growing up, during puberty, I've seen friends naked and not had any urgers but now I'm in this HOCD phase and it's making me question everything and doubt myself.

[Sparkling_Fairy]

You don't change sexual orientation during the course of your life. You would have had these feelings your whole life. Yes, some people don't come out until much later in life but they've always had those feelings, they were just too afraid to come out.
If you've never had these types of feelings throughout your life, it doesn't change now.

Sometimes I get a girl crush where I briefly think: could I be? But I still can't ever imagine myself with a woman.
I know OCD can be a b***tch. But trust me, you don't suddenly become bi.

[nomorepanic]

Hi

This is just a courtesy reply to let you know that your post was moved from its original place to a sub-forum that is more relevant to your issue.

This is nothing personal - it just enables us to keep posts about the same problems in the relevant forums so other members with any experience with the issues can find them more easily.

Please also read this post:

http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=213239