Ghoulbath
29-11-23, 18:47
Hey all. Long time HA sufferer here. I’ve been using these forums for months (lurking not posting) and they’ve really been super helpful.
I’ve been down a terrible spiral lately. Started with colon cancer fears over the summer for 5 months until my recent clear colonoscopy.
Had a few days of relief and decided you know what? I don’t know how to function without being worried sick with HA so let’s find something else! (I hate my brain)
Upon poking and prodding I found a small bump on my collarbone which moves a lot like some sort of muscle and is not behind or below the bone itself but actually on it. Even though this doesn’t seem to be a lymph node I’ve convinced myself it is and spent days digging and poking to the point now that muscle is swollen and I can’t be satisfied that it isn’t a lymph node.
I need to break this cycle and I am blatantly reassurance seeking here after the walk in clinic said it was nothing but left me unsatisfied. Any help is appreciated. Thank you very much
I’ve been down a terrible spiral lately. Started with colon cancer fears over the summer for 5 months until my recent clear colonoscopy.
Had a few days of relief and decided you know what? I don’t know how to function without being worried sick with HA so let’s find something else! (I hate my brain)
Upon poking and prodding I found a small bump on my collarbone which moves a lot like some sort of muscle and is not behind or below the bone itself but actually on it. Even though this doesn’t seem to be a lymph node I’ve convinced myself it is and spent days digging and poking to the point now that muscle is swollen and I can’t be satisfied that it isn’t a lymph node.
I need to break this cycle and I am blatantly reassurance seeking here after the walk in clinic said it was nothing but left me unsatisfied. Any help is appreciated. Thank you very much