jplivesinlondon
18-02-05, 23:27
Hi Everyone,
I'm a 25 yo man in London - work in an office, play in a band, recently single...
First post here - or anywhere for that matter!
Sorry if this is a bit long......
3 months ago I had two days of feeling like I was about to pass out and couldn't speak to anyone. I thought of what was happening as sustained panic attacks - the earth swallowing me up would have been a welcome sight. The day after I couldn't bring myself to go to work - went to the doctor , diagnosed with extreme anxiety and was signed off for a week (doctor kindly put palpitations rather than anxiety on my certificate).
Went pretty agrophobic for a few days, but forced myself to go out and do a few bits, felt a bit better so went back to work, but my confidence seems to have gone, I can't concentrate, seem to not be able to take in the world or process what happens in the same way I used to. I seem to over think. So I feel completely surreal - which is worse than the panic!! It doesn't feel like anxiety although I do feel anxious as well (if that makes sense!!), but as it occured directly after a panic episode I guess it must be.
I do occasionaly get episodes which definately are anxiety/panic but they don't worry me too much as I have come to the understanding that they are not actually harmful. Of course they are not much fun.
Bizarely I have played a few gigs in the last month and I was able to do it, how can someone with an anxiety problem get up on stage???
Its really difficult to motivate myself to carry on being the person I have been prior to this happening.
Wondering really if anyone had experience of the surrealness and how to deal with it??? I have been prescibed cipralex, but am too scared of possible short term worsening to take them. I realise this is a bit silly, but can't bring myself to do it.
Thanks for listening (I haven't told anyone about this so I think getting off my chest might be thereapeutic)
I'm a 25 yo man in London - work in an office, play in a band, recently single...
First post here - or anywhere for that matter!
Sorry if this is a bit long......
3 months ago I had two days of feeling like I was about to pass out and couldn't speak to anyone. I thought of what was happening as sustained panic attacks - the earth swallowing me up would have been a welcome sight. The day after I couldn't bring myself to go to work - went to the doctor , diagnosed with extreme anxiety and was signed off for a week (doctor kindly put palpitations rather than anxiety on my certificate).
Went pretty agrophobic for a few days, but forced myself to go out and do a few bits, felt a bit better so went back to work, but my confidence seems to have gone, I can't concentrate, seem to not be able to take in the world or process what happens in the same way I used to. I seem to over think. So I feel completely surreal - which is worse than the panic!! It doesn't feel like anxiety although I do feel anxious as well (if that makes sense!!), but as it occured directly after a panic episode I guess it must be.
I do occasionaly get episodes which definately are anxiety/panic but they don't worry me too much as I have come to the understanding that they are not actually harmful. Of course they are not much fun.
Bizarely I have played a few gigs in the last month and I was able to do it, how can someone with an anxiety problem get up on stage???
Its really difficult to motivate myself to carry on being the person I have been prior to this happening.
Wondering really if anyone had experience of the surrealness and how to deal with it??? I have been prescibed cipralex, but am too scared of possible short term worsening to take them. I realise this is a bit silly, but can't bring myself to do it.
Thanks for listening (I haven't told anyone about this so I think getting off my chest might be thereapeutic)