clickaway
19-02-05, 15:40
Just thought I'd post this as I'm sure we've all been there to some degree. We go downhill and wonder how we can get up again?
I've been in the doldrums for the past two weeks now, and for much of that time I couldn't go out much and only recently taken some car journeys.
I've realised that I've been very vulnerable lately, and have felt a great need to interact with people, especially as I live on my own which can be difficult when you feel like rock bottom.
One way that does help me out is to talk to others, especially those who understand what we go through, such as the people like you reading this. That's why I post on here and try to go to the chat room quite a bit.
But I sometimes find the PC stressful and so that's a dilemma. Just one of a number of dilemmas I have to face in order to get better - to find the right balance on any given day.
Then last evening, I learnt an elderly aunt of mine had died. I feel that news was a contribution to my waking up in the early hours with a tight wrist and flashing lights. I don't think it was the sense of loss so much as the expectation that I may have to go to the funeral and that one of my support lines (my brother) will have other priorities this week serving the need of my father and cousin as they grieve.
Anyway, I rang NHS Direct and then the Samaritans, as this is my way of reassurance and comfort - the actual voice can be so good to your wellbeing.
You will see that I'm really venting here, as I feel that I should. I am confused and mentally weak, and at these times its difficult to find a way forward.
Thanks,
Ray
I've been in the doldrums for the past two weeks now, and for much of that time I couldn't go out much and only recently taken some car journeys.
I've realised that I've been very vulnerable lately, and have felt a great need to interact with people, especially as I live on my own which can be difficult when you feel like rock bottom.
One way that does help me out is to talk to others, especially those who understand what we go through, such as the people like you reading this. That's why I post on here and try to go to the chat room quite a bit.
But I sometimes find the PC stressful and so that's a dilemma. Just one of a number of dilemmas I have to face in order to get better - to find the right balance on any given day.
Then last evening, I learnt an elderly aunt of mine had died. I feel that news was a contribution to my waking up in the early hours with a tight wrist and flashing lights. I don't think it was the sense of loss so much as the expectation that I may have to go to the funeral and that one of my support lines (my brother) will have other priorities this week serving the need of my father and cousin as they grieve.
Anyway, I rang NHS Direct and then the Samaritans, as this is my way of reassurance and comfort - the actual voice can be so good to your wellbeing.
You will see that I'm really venting here, as I feel that I should. I am confused and mentally weak, and at these times its difficult to find a way forward.
Thanks,
Ray