blackie
05-12-07, 21:04
Hiya all
Ever since i left college which was 2 years ago i have been putting on weight. Being stuck at home (a period of not leaving at all for nearly a year), Bordem, comfort eating, lack of exersise and depression. I have put on 4 stone. I cannot stand the way i look. None of my cloths fit anymore and i dont want to buy any more because i have gone from a size 8 to a size 14. I have gained teriable stratch marks. More so because i was anorexic and very fragile. Since then i have double my weight. I dont want to be ill again like that and being stuck in hospital but i want to lose the weight i have put on. I lose control every evning. Today for example i have done a good half hours exercise this morning. Had a salad and fruit for lunch, did another 10 mins exersice in the afternoon ( i couldnt do anymore as i am so unfit). Then come this evning i have eaten too much dinner and drank to much alcohol. And had a pudding and chocolate for afters. Every day is the same. Having a few glasses of wine is a great plesure to be although i do admit i quite offten drink more. Every week i say i will change. I will exersice and cut down on food. I will stop drinking and every week i fail. I hate it all.
sorry for such a long rant. I just cannot stand being in my skin.
Blackie
Ever since i left college which was 2 years ago i have been putting on weight. Being stuck at home (a period of not leaving at all for nearly a year), Bordem, comfort eating, lack of exersise and depression. I have put on 4 stone. I cannot stand the way i look. None of my cloths fit anymore and i dont want to buy any more because i have gone from a size 8 to a size 14. I have gained teriable stratch marks. More so because i was anorexic and very fragile. Since then i have double my weight. I dont want to be ill again like that and being stuck in hospital but i want to lose the weight i have put on. I lose control every evning. Today for example i have done a good half hours exercise this morning. Had a salad and fruit for lunch, did another 10 mins exersice in the afternoon ( i couldnt do anymore as i am so unfit). Then come this evning i have eaten too much dinner and drank to much alcohol. And had a pudding and chocolate for afters. Every day is the same. Having a few glasses of wine is a great plesure to be although i do admit i quite offten drink more. Every week i say i will change. I will exersice and cut down on food. I will stop drinking and every week i fail. I hate it all.
sorry for such a long rant. I just cannot stand being in my skin.
Blackie