smiley_baby1304
17-12-07, 03:02
hi... im tess and im 16 and have suffered from anxiety/ panic attacks since my dad had a stroke a year and a half ago
whats really been bothering me is
1. i have been having chronic headaches and although i am seeing a chiro and he assures me its because of my back and nerves and i feel better when he adjusts me, i am still convinced that
a) i have a brain tumour or
b) theres something wrong with my blood vessels and im going to have a stroke or an anerysm and die
i know the reasons behind this...my dad obviously, a kid at my school had an anerysm and i had a dream once that i had a brain tumour and only had 3 months to live.
im constantly thinking about my headaches, researching them etc
i also get these really random pains in my head that dont go away with paracetamol. they're sharp, start in my neck and "shoot" forward and then disappear. i have read about other people having these but its still so so scary because they are so severe.
umm i also get strange kind of anxiety sometimes, that depersonalisation stuff. sometimes it just comes on for no reason, like today when i was walking home from the park i thought i was about to pass out and die.
i also get panic attacks about my mum, my brother and my boyfriend. i freak out if they have a headache or arent home when they are supposed to be or if they dont answer their phones when i call them. this is when my anxiety is at its worst, when i lose control basically
i also have insomnia most nights, i have to watch tv with the light on and i often wake up with a panic attack or at least anxiety. mainly because i wake up and have a headache (not a bad one, its because of my bakc and neck I KNOW THIS which is so annoying buyt anxiety isnt logical is it?)
i always give myeslf half an hour and i say "if it gets worse, then say something"
its really starting to affect my everyday life. all i can think about is my headaches and the "symptoms" that im having, im not my bubbly, happy go lucky self, i just want to concentrate on the pain. im scared to move around or have fun in case i rupture a blood vessel (its so stupid i know). my mind is in constant overdrive
i know i need counselling or something, but i dont want my mum to know because she would freak out and thats another thing to deal with on top of everything else...and i dont want to go to the doctor because
a) he will think im stupid
b) there might actaully be something wrong with me in which case i dont want to know because im so afraid of dying i cant sleep.
im just so glad i found this site, to have a support network, somewhere that is positive
OK thats enough crazy from me today...
=D thanks for reading this super long post
whats really been bothering me is
1. i have been having chronic headaches and although i am seeing a chiro and he assures me its because of my back and nerves and i feel better when he adjusts me, i am still convinced that
a) i have a brain tumour or
b) theres something wrong with my blood vessels and im going to have a stroke or an anerysm and die
i know the reasons behind this...my dad obviously, a kid at my school had an anerysm and i had a dream once that i had a brain tumour and only had 3 months to live.
im constantly thinking about my headaches, researching them etc
i also get these really random pains in my head that dont go away with paracetamol. they're sharp, start in my neck and "shoot" forward and then disappear. i have read about other people having these but its still so so scary because they are so severe.
umm i also get strange kind of anxiety sometimes, that depersonalisation stuff. sometimes it just comes on for no reason, like today when i was walking home from the park i thought i was about to pass out and die.
i also get panic attacks about my mum, my brother and my boyfriend. i freak out if they have a headache or arent home when they are supposed to be or if they dont answer their phones when i call them. this is when my anxiety is at its worst, when i lose control basically
i also have insomnia most nights, i have to watch tv with the light on and i often wake up with a panic attack or at least anxiety. mainly because i wake up and have a headache (not a bad one, its because of my bakc and neck I KNOW THIS which is so annoying buyt anxiety isnt logical is it?)
i always give myeslf half an hour and i say "if it gets worse, then say something"
its really starting to affect my everyday life. all i can think about is my headaches and the "symptoms" that im having, im not my bubbly, happy go lucky self, i just want to concentrate on the pain. im scared to move around or have fun in case i rupture a blood vessel (its so stupid i know). my mind is in constant overdrive
i know i need counselling or something, but i dont want my mum to know because she would freak out and thats another thing to deal with on top of everything else...and i dont want to go to the doctor because
a) he will think im stupid
b) there might actaully be something wrong with me in which case i dont want to know because im so afraid of dying i cant sleep.
im just so glad i found this site, to have a support network, somewhere that is positive
OK thats enough crazy from me today...
=D thanks for reading this super long post