ruthb1
19-12-07, 11:14
hi all,
i feel like a fraud posting here at the moment as i have been so good for the past year, no panic attacks, not really any health anxiety, been doing really well up until about two weeks ago. My partner started off with the flu, then i got a chest infection so i was on antibiotics, the my youngest son who is six had a really bad cough and then he woke me up in the night and said he couldnt breathe, i spent so many times with him in hospital as a baby as he had astma and had to have nebulisers and inhalers but he grew out of it, i settled him down but i was so close to taking him to hospital in the middle of th night but i didnt, then 3 days later he was no better so i took him to the doctors as he prescribed him and inhaler OMG what a crap mum, i felt awful so he was on the inhaler and off school, then my partner who is still off work with the flu gets something called bursitis in his elbow which is when the fluid around the elbow bursts and then gets infected, but he suffers with problems with his heart so my first thought was pains in the arms and heart, you know where i am going. Then i developed a pain below my rib cage and then it moved so i eventually went to the doctors as i thought i had a water infection, he did a water sample and told me it was clear, told me to get on the bed and then proceeded to tell me that it could be my gall bladder, i, i felt the rush of panic come all over me, he has told me to go for blood tests and has arranged a scan my god my mum had her gall bladder out in july as she had gall stones and my nan had gall stones also but when they opened her up she had cancer of the pancreas also. i have still got the pain and it has moved so i was speaking to my friend who is a GP and she said it could be appendicitis well that was the last straw. i have just freaked. i have googled, i have done everything i shouldnt have done, my friend also said that she would test my water as i was convinced that i still had a water infection but it was clear still. i am terrified of hospitials the thought of them telling me i have got to have an operation is killing me, i keep trying to be rational but its not working. why iam i feeling like this again, why do i feel like i cant cope, i keep thinking its appendicitis, its gall stones, say it ruptured, say i have just strained it , but if i have strained it why hasnt it gone after a week, it is anxiety pains because i have been so stressed out and its mimicking pains, i dont know all i know is that i hate this feeling again, i want to feel like i have done but in feel like i am sinking at the moment.
sorry for moaning but ineeded to get it off my chest
take care
ruth
i feel like a fraud posting here at the moment as i have been so good for the past year, no panic attacks, not really any health anxiety, been doing really well up until about two weeks ago. My partner started off with the flu, then i got a chest infection so i was on antibiotics, the my youngest son who is six had a really bad cough and then he woke me up in the night and said he couldnt breathe, i spent so many times with him in hospital as a baby as he had astma and had to have nebulisers and inhalers but he grew out of it, i settled him down but i was so close to taking him to hospital in the middle of th night but i didnt, then 3 days later he was no better so i took him to the doctors as he prescribed him and inhaler OMG what a crap mum, i felt awful so he was on the inhaler and off school, then my partner who is still off work with the flu gets something called bursitis in his elbow which is when the fluid around the elbow bursts and then gets infected, but he suffers with problems with his heart so my first thought was pains in the arms and heart, you know where i am going. Then i developed a pain below my rib cage and then it moved so i eventually went to the doctors as i thought i had a water infection, he did a water sample and told me it was clear, told me to get on the bed and then proceeded to tell me that it could be my gall bladder, i, i felt the rush of panic come all over me, he has told me to go for blood tests and has arranged a scan my god my mum had her gall bladder out in july as she had gall stones and my nan had gall stones also but when they opened her up she had cancer of the pancreas also. i have still got the pain and it has moved so i was speaking to my friend who is a GP and she said it could be appendicitis well that was the last straw. i have just freaked. i have googled, i have done everything i shouldnt have done, my friend also said that she would test my water as i was convinced that i still had a water infection but it was clear still. i am terrified of hospitials the thought of them telling me i have got to have an operation is killing me, i keep trying to be rational but its not working. why iam i feeling like this again, why do i feel like i cant cope, i keep thinking its appendicitis, its gall stones, say it ruptured, say i have just strained it , but if i have strained it why hasnt it gone after a week, it is anxiety pains because i have been so stressed out and its mimicking pains, i dont know all i know is that i hate this feeling again, i want to feel like i have done but in feel like i am sinking at the moment.
sorry for moaning but ineeded to get it off my chest
take care
ruth