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23-02-05, 13:35
Hi,
I must reassure myself of this.
I constantly feel tired, almost as soon as I have eaten I need to go to the bathroom, my eyes seem to not work properly and I feel as if I have a feeverish type of illness. Hands and legs are shaking somewhat and I'm allways cold.
Is this really normal for "us".
And what's with the constant crying part. When, for instance, I talk to my colleagues about my condition and try to tell them how bad I feel inside, I start to cry (as I do writing this down). This is strange.
I mean, I have had two HUGE attacks who both resulted in the emergency ward and I have had a lot of the small ones (you know, when it feels as if your life is running out of you), but I have a constant feeling with the above symptoms. This is really getting really irritating and I get pissed of that I can't be as I used to be.
I also, just now, sent an e-mail to a therapist specialising in cognitive behavure and hoping she can help as I realised that the psychiatrists I got a referral to will take a looong time before they are free (Regular queues are one year, which is madness).
Anyways I hate this thing and want to get rid of it, as I'm sure you all want. I reaally feel so damn useless. Well, life goes on...
[edit] Bad english
I must reassure myself of this.
I constantly feel tired, almost as soon as I have eaten I need to go to the bathroom, my eyes seem to not work properly and I feel as if I have a feeverish type of illness. Hands and legs are shaking somewhat and I'm allways cold.
Is this really normal for "us".
And what's with the constant crying part. When, for instance, I talk to my colleagues about my condition and try to tell them how bad I feel inside, I start to cry (as I do writing this down). This is strange.
I mean, I have had two HUGE attacks who both resulted in the emergency ward and I have had a lot of the small ones (you know, when it feels as if your life is running out of you), but I have a constant feeling with the above symptoms. This is really getting really irritating and I get pissed of that I can't be as I used to be.
I also, just now, sent an e-mail to a therapist specialising in cognitive behavure and hoping she can help as I realised that the psychiatrists I got a referral to will take a looong time before they are free (Regular queues are one year, which is madness).
Anyways I hate this thing and want to get rid of it, as I'm sure you all want. I reaally feel so damn useless. Well, life goes on...
[edit] Bad english