alihud
27-12-07, 17:06
Hey there all,some of you may remember me from a year or so ago.Amback again,been getting more panic attacks,had one today infact,managed to get through xmas tho which was a bonus.My nameis Ali and ilive in Wiltshirewith mytwo children and 4dogs and mykeysare sticking onmykeyboard!!!
I run afloristshop butat themo am seriouslythinking about giving it up as its just so stressful and not reallymaking me loads ofmoney for the amount of time i put in.Xmas has been awful workwise,had alot of work but not much profit at all.I have also had one of my children pretty ill and off school and also had to have one ofmy dogs put to sleep which is one of the worst things i have had to do.I was foolishly planning to get a puppy to replace mylost one but today i made the descision it will be just too much for me as well as coping with the panic attacks.I am gutted to say the least because i had fallen for the puppy we had chosen but asi have three other dogsi really feel i'vegot enuff.The panics are happening for a reason and i haveto listen to myself and stop overloading myself.Have had my boyfriend staying here too and couldn't bear him near me most of the time but he is so good to us and so patient and kind i just think it is my fraught nerves that are at fault here.Even the telly has brought me down,how sad is that?Have found Eastenders so hard to deal with as the story line is so close to what has happened to me and my ex husband,the scars run so deep.I am determined to get over it tho.I am determined to cope with all this just need a hand to hold again.
Ali xxxx
I run afloristshop butat themo am seriouslythinking about giving it up as its just so stressful and not reallymaking me loads ofmoney for the amount of time i put in.Xmas has been awful workwise,had alot of work but not much profit at all.I have also had one of my children pretty ill and off school and also had to have one ofmy dogs put to sleep which is one of the worst things i have had to do.I was foolishly planning to get a puppy to replace mylost one but today i made the descision it will be just too much for me as well as coping with the panic attacks.I am gutted to say the least because i had fallen for the puppy we had chosen but asi have three other dogsi really feel i'vegot enuff.The panics are happening for a reason and i haveto listen to myself and stop overloading myself.Have had my boyfriend staying here too and couldn't bear him near me most of the time but he is so good to us and so patient and kind i just think it is my fraught nerves that are at fault here.Even the telly has brought me down,how sad is that?Have found Eastenders so hard to deal with as the story line is so close to what has happened to me and my ex husband,the scars run so deep.I am determined to get over it tho.I am determined to cope with all this just need a hand to hold again.
Ali xxxx