davidr
27-02-05, 20:49
Many Thanks to everyone for replying to my introductory post, I am not sure where it is now or if I am now posting in the correct place, please accept my apologies if I am in the wrong forum section.
I have been absent for a week or so as my heart fears took me to see a private heart consultant last Monday and he suggested I have an angiogram to once and for all silence my doubts of dying of a heart attack. He said the cardiac EBT scans would not pick up narrowing of the actual artery but rather calcification and only an angiogram actually answers the narrowing question and if the heart is receiving adequate or reduced bloodflow.
I was in hospital 2 days later having the procedure and he declared my coronary arteries to be 'Pristine'! He Actually used this word and said he had seen worse arteries in people in their 20's my choleterol had also fallen to 4.7 from 5.6 in a year purely on dietary changes and exercise. My other bloods were also good. So some £1500 lighter in pocket but no longer terrified each day I wake up that I will be in A&E or dead by the evening.
So it was anxiety after all, how have I done this to myself to be internally so well yet externally feel so ill and so sure I would die. I still have the palpatations and picked up a leaflet on the subject before leaving hospital. Sometimes I sit and can feel my heart beat all over my body, my stomach was actually beating today and moving in rhythm to my heart which was very strange. I am now concerned that this will become a new focus or obsession and I will need to go back to the consultant again convinced I have an abnormal heart rhythm.
I have started taking valerium root and this does seem to help calm me, I have also purchased something called powerbreathe which is a device to help improve breathing as I am sure my shallow breathing is causing too much adrenaline to keep being released and creating the fight or flight response. The device is amazing in improving the depth of my breathing and making my weakened diaphragm and breathing muscles more effective.
Sorry for the ramble but my mind is all over the place and I have dificulty switching off the millions of thoughts racing through it. It looks like I have to face up to this new illness I have and start working on beating it, they say your depression never really goes but comes back again or else manifests itself somehwere else, there was me thinking I could get on with my life after depression and now this!
I was thinking of doing a Neuro Linguistic Programming and stress management course to try and put my mind into a better place, but can one learn things when I am obviously mentally ill?
I have been absent for a week or so as my heart fears took me to see a private heart consultant last Monday and he suggested I have an angiogram to once and for all silence my doubts of dying of a heart attack. He said the cardiac EBT scans would not pick up narrowing of the actual artery but rather calcification and only an angiogram actually answers the narrowing question and if the heart is receiving adequate or reduced bloodflow.
I was in hospital 2 days later having the procedure and he declared my coronary arteries to be 'Pristine'! He Actually used this word and said he had seen worse arteries in people in their 20's my choleterol had also fallen to 4.7 from 5.6 in a year purely on dietary changes and exercise. My other bloods were also good. So some £1500 lighter in pocket but no longer terrified each day I wake up that I will be in A&E or dead by the evening.
So it was anxiety after all, how have I done this to myself to be internally so well yet externally feel so ill and so sure I would die. I still have the palpatations and picked up a leaflet on the subject before leaving hospital. Sometimes I sit and can feel my heart beat all over my body, my stomach was actually beating today and moving in rhythm to my heart which was very strange. I am now concerned that this will become a new focus or obsession and I will need to go back to the consultant again convinced I have an abnormal heart rhythm.
I have started taking valerium root and this does seem to help calm me, I have also purchased something called powerbreathe which is a device to help improve breathing as I am sure my shallow breathing is causing too much adrenaline to keep being released and creating the fight or flight response. The device is amazing in improving the depth of my breathing and making my weakened diaphragm and breathing muscles more effective.
Sorry for the ramble but my mind is all over the place and I have dificulty switching off the millions of thoughts racing through it. It looks like I have to face up to this new illness I have and start working on beating it, they say your depression never really goes but comes back again or else manifests itself somehwere else, there was me thinking I could get on with my life after depression and now this!
I was thinking of doing a Neuro Linguistic Programming and stress management course to try and put my mind into a better place, but can one learn things when I am obviously mentally ill?