Goodlife
11-01-08, 13:40
Hi,
After visiting the site for a few months, and encouraged by the support everbody seems to give and receive, and realising there are other people in the same boat, I decided to join.
So this is me. Almost 44 year old mother of almost 10 year old twins. Very supportive partner, nice house in a nice area, no money worries, part time job, friends- two of which I can talk to about anything. Not a prime candidate for anxiety or panic attacks you would think. March last year I had my 1st one. During the summer my Mum was diagnosed with breast cancer (shes had her teatment now and things are looking really positive). Things got worse for me, more attacks etc and I was put on medication. Side effects were awful and I was off work for 6 weeks. After some tinkering with doses etc I'm now on 10mg of Cipralex with Propronol & Diazepan in the cupboard for when needed. Apart from a blip at Xmas when we lost a much loved family pet who we'd had over 30 years I've been sort of o.k, although my head always seems to feel slightly fuzzy. I had been positive, telling myself I can get through this, mind over matter etc. Wednesday evening I went out and had a very pleasant meal with a friend. Drove home, got in, head started to go, legs like jelly, nauseous, clammy palms, heart fluttering etc. So now I'm thinking it's not something I have any control over. It can happen at any time and I can't identify the cause. Do I just have to accept this thing is part of me ? Am I always going to be on medication ?
Sorry, I've just read this and I've rambled on a bit- it seems once I open the floodgates I can't stop ! Anyway, thanks for reading, bye for now
After visiting the site for a few months, and encouraged by the support everbody seems to give and receive, and realising there are other people in the same boat, I decided to join.
So this is me. Almost 44 year old mother of almost 10 year old twins. Very supportive partner, nice house in a nice area, no money worries, part time job, friends- two of which I can talk to about anything. Not a prime candidate for anxiety or panic attacks you would think. March last year I had my 1st one. During the summer my Mum was diagnosed with breast cancer (shes had her teatment now and things are looking really positive). Things got worse for me, more attacks etc and I was put on medication. Side effects were awful and I was off work for 6 weeks. After some tinkering with doses etc I'm now on 10mg of Cipralex with Propronol & Diazepan in the cupboard for when needed. Apart from a blip at Xmas when we lost a much loved family pet who we'd had over 30 years I've been sort of o.k, although my head always seems to feel slightly fuzzy. I had been positive, telling myself I can get through this, mind over matter etc. Wednesday evening I went out and had a very pleasant meal with a friend. Drove home, got in, head started to go, legs like jelly, nauseous, clammy palms, heart fluttering etc. So now I'm thinking it's not something I have any control over. It can happen at any time and I can't identify the cause. Do I just have to accept this thing is part of me ? Am I always going to be on medication ?
Sorry, I've just read this and I've rambled on a bit- it seems once I open the floodgates I can't stop ! Anyway, thanks for reading, bye for now