Deadgirl
16-01-08, 13:49
Hey everyone, I just came accross this site when i was looking up something i experienced this morning, mostly likely nothing but i thought it a really good site, so i decided ill join, and see if i can help, or get help etc
I spose i should start with some info about myself, so here we go..
I am 21, but no stranger to anxiety, i have have it since i was very young, when i was a kid, my parents put it down to a nervous disposition, i was terrified of the dark until the age of 14, then out of the blue i prefered it, I had my first very serious panic attack at the age of 16, which involved me going to the hospital strapped to a heart monitor, they could not calm me down and even the paramedics thought i was having a heart attack, after a few hours they calmed me down and iwas told to visit my GP, so i did.
I was diagnosed with severe panic disorder and clinical depression, as i also self harm and have had suicidal thoughts in the past. I was put on beta blockers but they didnt work, so i was put on anti-depressants and given councelling. The councelling didnt work, they couldnt pin point it to anything particular, ive had bad past, but i was told it was mostly an illness for me. So the councelling stopped, i am to this day still on anti-depressants, but am still very anxious and depressed, though less, i am happy and open about it, i can talk about it, i try to explain it to people in a sense where they realise it is an illness and you cannot just snap out of it, i get almost every symptom under the sun lol, also i have turned to alchohol to block the moods but i find , even though i enjoy getting wasted on a night out, it does make depression and insomnia worse. i have more but this is getting waaay to long lol so baisically, hi everyone.
Rach xxx
I spose i should start with some info about myself, so here we go..
I am 21, but no stranger to anxiety, i have have it since i was very young, when i was a kid, my parents put it down to a nervous disposition, i was terrified of the dark until the age of 14, then out of the blue i prefered it, I had my first very serious panic attack at the age of 16, which involved me going to the hospital strapped to a heart monitor, they could not calm me down and even the paramedics thought i was having a heart attack, after a few hours they calmed me down and iwas told to visit my GP, so i did.
I was diagnosed with severe panic disorder and clinical depression, as i also self harm and have had suicidal thoughts in the past. I was put on beta blockers but they didnt work, so i was put on anti-depressants and given councelling. The councelling didnt work, they couldnt pin point it to anything particular, ive had bad past, but i was told it was mostly an illness for me. So the councelling stopped, i am to this day still on anti-depressants, but am still very anxious and depressed, though less, i am happy and open about it, i can talk about it, i try to explain it to people in a sense where they realise it is an illness and you cannot just snap out of it, i get almost every symptom under the sun lol, also i have turned to alchohol to block the moods but i find , even though i enjoy getting wasted on a night out, it does make depression and insomnia worse. i have more but this is getting waaay to long lol so baisically, hi everyone.
Rach xxx