henri
08-03-05, 16:40
Hi everyone,
Nothing particularly terrible has happened to me, itÕs just that IÕve been having such a rubbish time of it recently and I donÕt want to spend any more time complaining to my boyfriend or my friends as I think they might have had enough of me by now. So I thought IÕd complain to you lot!
I failed my driving test today (third one in ten years Š have already booked the next one nic, donÕt worry!!) Š I donÕt know why IÕve got such a phobia about driving tests and come over all panicky Š I donÕt mind driving but just lose the plot when it comes to a test situation. Anyway, I knew I was going to fail and was feeling okay about it, but then I came into work and my boss announced that he was changing my job slightly, so I now have less responsibility. I know I should be happy about this because he has, in fact, taken away from me a couple of weekly tasks that I was beginning to loathe, but itÕs still made me feel really bad, like he thinks IÕm not capable any more.
Plus, I know this is a really ridiculous thing to say, but IÕve got a terrible cold Š first time IÕve had one since my PAs started and itÕs really freaking me out. As if I donÕt spend enough time worrying about whether or not I can breathe, IÕm totally bunged up so it just always feel like I canÕt breathe. If anyone has any tips on how to deal with panic when you have a cold, or how to get rid of a cold full stop, I would love to hear them!
I think itÕs just that thing of it being one thing after another Š I donÕt think IÕve really had a happy day this year. ItÕs really beginning to get me down and IÕm starting to feel so miserable and I donÕt know what to do. I know people say the best thing you can do is be positive and IÕve really been trying but it requires such a huge amount of mental energy and I donÕt think IÕve got any left.
Sorry to ramble on and on,
Take care everyone,
Henri xx
Nothing particularly terrible has happened to me, itÕs just that IÕve been having such a rubbish time of it recently and I donÕt want to spend any more time complaining to my boyfriend or my friends as I think they might have had enough of me by now. So I thought IÕd complain to you lot!
I failed my driving test today (third one in ten years Š have already booked the next one nic, donÕt worry!!) Š I donÕt know why IÕve got such a phobia about driving tests and come over all panicky Š I donÕt mind driving but just lose the plot when it comes to a test situation. Anyway, I knew I was going to fail and was feeling okay about it, but then I came into work and my boss announced that he was changing my job slightly, so I now have less responsibility. I know I should be happy about this because he has, in fact, taken away from me a couple of weekly tasks that I was beginning to loathe, but itÕs still made me feel really bad, like he thinks IÕm not capable any more.
Plus, I know this is a really ridiculous thing to say, but IÕve got a terrible cold Š first time IÕve had one since my PAs started and itÕs really freaking me out. As if I donÕt spend enough time worrying about whether or not I can breathe, IÕm totally bunged up so it just always feel like I canÕt breathe. If anyone has any tips on how to deal with panic when you have a cold, or how to get rid of a cold full stop, I would love to hear them!
I think itÕs just that thing of it being one thing after another Š I donÕt think IÕve really had a happy day this year. ItÕs really beginning to get me down and IÕm starting to feel so miserable and I donÕt know what to do. I know people say the best thing you can do is be positive and IÕve really been trying but it requires such a huge amount of mental energy and I donÕt think IÕve got any left.
Sorry to ramble on and on,
Take care everyone,
Henri xx