AngelHeart
03-02-08, 21:03
Hi all,
I am so glad I have come across this website and by chance too as I was 'googling' about lightheadedness :blush:
Having read some of the forums, I feel at last I have found a place where I have fellow sufferers who know what it feels to be like myself.
I will do a small introduction which will probably end up huge :D !! But it will help you understand why I am the way i am. Ready???
I'm Pauline (32) happily married with 3 gorgeous children, 2 girls and a boy who are 7,5 and 1. Lots of peaple ask me why I feel the way I do when I have got such a loving, supportive family but its not that easy is it? I work 2 jobs. One as a childminder for 2 days a week but i'm up at 6.30. The rest of the week up at 7am for my kids at school. I also work four evenings 6-10. Working packing shelves which is quite a physical job. I rarely go to bed before 12am and then when I do i'm usually reading as I don't sleep too good sometimes.
I suffer from depression, GAD, panic attacks and my main one is health anxiety.
I was abused as a child, physically and mentally. I was also molested by my mums boyfriend. I was bullied at school constantly so I have always had a low self esteem. My grandad ( who was a dad to me ) died in my arms 3 years ago of cancer and my Mum ( who I wasn't getting on well with at the time ) died at age 47, 5 months after my Gramps.:weep:
I started to suffer really badly after my second little girl was born. I initially had PND which turned into a nightmare. I use to shack 24/7 have multiple panic attacks and developed health anxiety where I thought every little ache and pain was cancer. At the time my Gramps was having cancer cut out of him left,right and centre and my relationship with my Mum wasn't very good.
It took me two years to start to feel *normal* (whatever that is!!) after going on anti d's for a while. For the last couple of years I have been quite good, with only the odd panic attack and obsessive behaviour over my health.
But.... 6 weeks ago my health anxiety as returned at full pelt and has knocked me off my feet. My GAD has returned with the panic attacks and feeling again that I have alsorts wrong with me.
I look forward to chatting with fellow sufferers and hoping to get comfort from the fact that I am not alone.
Thanks for reading all this ! :yesyes:
Pauline xxx
I am so glad I have come across this website and by chance too as I was 'googling' about lightheadedness :blush:
Having read some of the forums, I feel at last I have found a place where I have fellow sufferers who know what it feels to be like myself.
I will do a small introduction which will probably end up huge :D !! But it will help you understand why I am the way i am. Ready???
I'm Pauline (32) happily married with 3 gorgeous children, 2 girls and a boy who are 7,5 and 1. Lots of peaple ask me why I feel the way I do when I have got such a loving, supportive family but its not that easy is it? I work 2 jobs. One as a childminder for 2 days a week but i'm up at 6.30. The rest of the week up at 7am for my kids at school. I also work four evenings 6-10. Working packing shelves which is quite a physical job. I rarely go to bed before 12am and then when I do i'm usually reading as I don't sleep too good sometimes.
I suffer from depression, GAD, panic attacks and my main one is health anxiety.
I was abused as a child, physically and mentally. I was also molested by my mums boyfriend. I was bullied at school constantly so I have always had a low self esteem. My grandad ( who was a dad to me ) died in my arms 3 years ago of cancer and my Mum ( who I wasn't getting on well with at the time ) died at age 47, 5 months after my Gramps.:weep:
I started to suffer really badly after my second little girl was born. I initially had PND which turned into a nightmare. I use to shack 24/7 have multiple panic attacks and developed health anxiety where I thought every little ache and pain was cancer. At the time my Gramps was having cancer cut out of him left,right and centre and my relationship with my Mum wasn't very good.
It took me two years to start to feel *normal* (whatever that is!!) after going on anti d's for a while. For the last couple of years I have been quite good, with only the odd panic attack and obsessive behaviour over my health.
But.... 6 weeks ago my health anxiety as returned at full pelt and has knocked me off my feet. My GAD has returned with the panic attacks and feeling again that I have alsorts wrong with me.
I look forward to chatting with fellow sufferers and hoping to get comfort from the fact that I am not alone.
Thanks for reading all this ! :yesyes:
Pauline xxx