fionabc
06-02-08, 21:06
Im writing this post because I want to share something with you all, Ive not been on medication for around 10 years, back then it was for depression. I wont touch any medications now, even on bad days, I have to relax, accept what I am.
Being out of work is the main cause for my panic attacks, but its effecting my driving, going out, meeting people.. everything. Some days im strong, others days Im pathetic. Im married to a good man, with three teenagers, who bring their own worries, but Ive accepted who I am, and what I am and I will always be this way, but I used to be so different once, I used to feel so different once, where did it all go?. I cant help but look back at them days and feel fustrated.
Do you remember a time when you were free from all of this? I do, as a child, well kind of, my problems stemmed from a abusive childhood, but I dont remember having panic attacks! So why did I change?
Ive had a few small nervous breakdowns, (Ive never been admitted into hospital though) problems with family etc which I know practically screwed up my body, but it doesnt stop me thinking of what I used to be able to do without feeling any fear!
Well I dont want to bore you all with why's and if's, I wanted to say what a fab site this is, and what a great help its been for me personally. Most of you sound like me, confused, scared, and so tired of it all. Taking the good days, with the bad.
If i could hug you all I would. It makes me sad to think there are so many other people going through the same thing. Dont you feel like my life is passing you by while we worry about crossing the street!.
Take care all xxxxx
Being out of work is the main cause for my panic attacks, but its effecting my driving, going out, meeting people.. everything. Some days im strong, others days Im pathetic. Im married to a good man, with three teenagers, who bring their own worries, but Ive accepted who I am, and what I am and I will always be this way, but I used to be so different once, I used to feel so different once, where did it all go?. I cant help but look back at them days and feel fustrated.
Do you remember a time when you were free from all of this? I do, as a child, well kind of, my problems stemmed from a abusive childhood, but I dont remember having panic attacks! So why did I change?
Ive had a few small nervous breakdowns, (Ive never been admitted into hospital though) problems with family etc which I know practically screwed up my body, but it doesnt stop me thinking of what I used to be able to do without feeling any fear!
Well I dont want to bore you all with why's and if's, I wanted to say what a fab site this is, and what a great help its been for me personally. Most of you sound like me, confused, scared, and so tired of it all. Taking the good days, with the bad.
If i could hug you all I would. It makes me sad to think there are so many other people going through the same thing. Dont you feel like my life is passing you by while we worry about crossing the street!.
Take care all xxxxx