peach
06-02-08, 21:15
hi hi !
ok, so you knew i went for the job...that 4 hour interview...lol..ughhhh...then i got the job..now im starting on monday....in the days im feeling ill be ok with it, but nights....another story...i always feel worst at night...so the bad dreams are coming on now, and the panicky feelings...."oh i cant do it...i feel so sick! what if something is really wrong and ill have to leave?".
i havent told the new boss about my "issues", mainly because i havent met him/her yetand i guess, im still in a little denial....( it took me a year to admit i have a mental problem)
i think my main issue is that some of the shifts ill have to do will finish at 9-10pm, so you can imagine, they will be tough for me.
also, why why does everything come at once???? (this is just a general gripe) my car is going to cost 1000$ to replace whole brake system....which i need cause no way im ready to tackle public transport yet....no way...lol...
and...all of a sudden, everyone wants us to attend night events in my first week of work!!!!! one night event without work is a big ordeal for me, cause i have to cope with the sick feelings...but 3 ?? in one week?...the week i start full time work training??? im gonna be a zombie with a chuck bucket close to me....hahahahahhh:scared10: and quite a mess by end of week...BUT...(there must always be a good side to things)- im hoping i will sleep really well by end of it...heheh
ok, wish me luck people, please...i need it now.....feelin the vibes....
need this job, owe so much money and really not prepared to sell my body for it, so this is the only other way...hehehe...
ok, so you knew i went for the job...that 4 hour interview...lol..ughhhh...then i got the job..now im starting on monday....in the days im feeling ill be ok with it, but nights....another story...i always feel worst at night...so the bad dreams are coming on now, and the panicky feelings...."oh i cant do it...i feel so sick! what if something is really wrong and ill have to leave?".
i havent told the new boss about my "issues", mainly because i havent met him/her yetand i guess, im still in a little denial....( it took me a year to admit i have a mental problem)
i think my main issue is that some of the shifts ill have to do will finish at 9-10pm, so you can imagine, they will be tough for me.
also, why why does everything come at once???? (this is just a general gripe) my car is going to cost 1000$ to replace whole brake system....which i need cause no way im ready to tackle public transport yet....no way...lol...
and...all of a sudden, everyone wants us to attend night events in my first week of work!!!!! one night event without work is a big ordeal for me, cause i have to cope with the sick feelings...but 3 ?? in one week?...the week i start full time work training??? im gonna be a zombie with a chuck bucket close to me....hahahahahhh:scared10: and quite a mess by end of week...BUT...(there must always be a good side to things)- im hoping i will sleep really well by end of it...heheh
ok, wish me luck people, please...i need it now.....feelin the vibes....
need this job, owe so much money and really not prepared to sell my body for it, so this is the only other way...hehehe...