breakingoutthistime
08-02-08, 15:45
For longer then can remember socially have always been a nightmare.
This is because
Want to go out and its always either limited to just going out somewhere simple like fish shop get fish or going out for a drive somewhere lack of money makes things hard.
Always end up getting stressed and annoyed at things beyond control here like noise from downstairs always worse at weekends, the people in the shop, will just go and dread it before even got in there.
If have money just been paid ( partner) then will go out to big place like virgin and get dvds etc cds nice things but am useless in crowds and hate it end up always going back to car, have a very low tolerance level when it comes to these things.
Dont mean to rant but social anxiety is bad and been from an island 60 000 strong 24 miles square can imagne how hard it is to escape people or literally not be bombarded by them everywhere.
Realilse cant hide from people but sometimes its nice to go out to cliff paths etc beach alone time but here cant do that it involves a long drive over hour half to get to coast so feel trapped somewhat the kids are always in the basketball courts now and the place used to go running is rough glass on ground disgusting stuff and last time went down there ended up having rocks thrown at me just for riding bike.
Just feel so so so much easier at night socially its the day thats the problem facing the day getting up early doing the 9 to 5 thing should be what am doing but just dont know if got it in self to do it am a creature of the night.
Anxiety is bad and so is panic although have counteracting meds have all the methods breathing techniques visualization security measures distraction etc but this waryness and suspicion of people is so overwelming and intense dont no where it comes from.
LIVE FREE OR DIE
:shades:
This is because
Want to go out and its always either limited to just going out somewhere simple like fish shop get fish or going out for a drive somewhere lack of money makes things hard.
Always end up getting stressed and annoyed at things beyond control here like noise from downstairs always worse at weekends, the people in the shop, will just go and dread it before even got in there.
If have money just been paid ( partner) then will go out to big place like virgin and get dvds etc cds nice things but am useless in crowds and hate it end up always going back to car, have a very low tolerance level when it comes to these things.
Dont mean to rant but social anxiety is bad and been from an island 60 000 strong 24 miles square can imagne how hard it is to escape people or literally not be bombarded by them everywhere.
Realilse cant hide from people but sometimes its nice to go out to cliff paths etc beach alone time but here cant do that it involves a long drive over hour half to get to coast so feel trapped somewhat the kids are always in the basketball courts now and the place used to go running is rough glass on ground disgusting stuff and last time went down there ended up having rocks thrown at me just for riding bike.
Just feel so so so much easier at night socially its the day thats the problem facing the day getting up early doing the 9 to 5 thing should be what am doing but just dont know if got it in self to do it am a creature of the night.
Anxiety is bad and so is panic although have counteracting meds have all the methods breathing techniques visualization security measures distraction etc but this waryness and suspicion of people is so overwelming and intense dont no where it comes from.
LIVE FREE OR DIE
:shades: