Angie
11-02-08, 19:34
Yes the one we all know. Anxiety and panic...I am what I would consider a level headed person in a loving relationship with 2 great kids a nice home and a (fairly) satisfying job. So why after 39 years of living with no obvious reason does a panic attack strike out of the blue?
I have since come to understand that I am what is termed a 'people pleaser' perhaps or probably neglecting my wants and needs.
So time for some changes, the difficult part, building in time for me without feeling guilty for doing so. Small steps, but it is working, my anxiety is not so acute. I can now see it and the panic attacks for what they are, acceptance - the road to recovery? I think so.
As someone once said life is the journey not the destination, we must take pleasure in the moment; find something in each day to behold. Now I talk to people, to the checkout operator, to the lady you pass in the street, to the gentleman you collect the horse manure (don't ask!) from and guess what - it helps. They talk to you back and that makes you feel good.
So I am winning and as so many have said this site is absolutely invaluable, here I have found my answers, answers that none of the health care professionals seemed able to give. Here I have found that we are all normal people who are suffering from high levels of anxiety.
For me the journey goes on but I am damned if I will let it beat me. This has happened to me for a reason and I will make it a positive experience. I will see the beauty in each day, the love in my family, the good nature of the world in general. If I could just understand why this has happened to me then I am sure I can be a better person for it.
Wow did I say all that....hope it makes sense and hope it strikes a chord with someone, there is hope
I have since come to understand that I am what is termed a 'people pleaser' perhaps or probably neglecting my wants and needs.
So time for some changes, the difficult part, building in time for me without feeling guilty for doing so. Small steps, but it is working, my anxiety is not so acute. I can now see it and the panic attacks for what they are, acceptance - the road to recovery? I think so.
As someone once said life is the journey not the destination, we must take pleasure in the moment; find something in each day to behold. Now I talk to people, to the checkout operator, to the lady you pass in the street, to the gentleman you collect the horse manure (don't ask!) from and guess what - it helps. They talk to you back and that makes you feel good.
So I am winning and as so many have said this site is absolutely invaluable, here I have found my answers, answers that none of the health care professionals seemed able to give. Here I have found that we are all normal people who are suffering from high levels of anxiety.
For me the journey goes on but I am damned if I will let it beat me. This has happened to me for a reason and I will make it a positive experience. I will see the beauty in each day, the love in my family, the good nature of the world in general. If I could just understand why this has happened to me then I am sure I can be a better person for it.
Wow did I say all that....hope it makes sense and hope it strikes a chord with someone, there is hope