lotus
13-03-05, 15:52
Hey guys;)
My name is Allie, I'm 18 and I'm from Sofia, Bulgaria. I know that most of you are from the UK, but I hope that you don't mind me joining the community.[:I] Please excuse my English, I realise that it's far from perfect. [}:)]
So this is my story ... It all started 8 months ago. I got home one night, went to bed, and all of a sudden felt overwhelmed with anxiety. The next day I felt exhausted and anxious at the same time. Very weird feeling. I was so weak that I couldn't get out of bed. This is how my little personal hell started ;)
I remember that had one similar episode when I was 11. Back then, I also felt anxious but didn't really know what was wrong with me. I thought I was very sick, and that I was going to die. I remember that I was afraid to go to bed because I thought that I might never wake up again. The anxiety didn't stop me from going to school, though. It lasted for about a year, and then it disappeared. After that I remember feeling dizzy from time to time. But then it all passed and I forgot that it had ever happened. Now that I think about it over and over again, I just don't understand how can an 11 year old child have such problems. I just don't get it.
Now the anxiety is much stronger and much more disableing than it was when I was 11. I pretty much stay at home and feel sorry for myself. I know it's wrong and will do my best to change it ;) For quite a long time I thought that things would just ... get better with time. But they don't get better. So ... I have to work hard in order to improve. I know this is kind of obvious, but it took me a while to realise it ;) I decided to make consistent efforts everyday and just take one step at a time. Hopefully, things will get better.
I'm really happy I found you guys[8D] Thank you for reading my story. I'm sure that we're all gonna beat this. And I'm sure that after we get through this we're gonna be even happier that we were before. Good luck to everyone!
Take care,
Allie
My name is Allie, I'm 18 and I'm from Sofia, Bulgaria. I know that most of you are from the UK, but I hope that you don't mind me joining the community.[:I] Please excuse my English, I realise that it's far from perfect. [}:)]
So this is my story ... It all started 8 months ago. I got home one night, went to bed, and all of a sudden felt overwhelmed with anxiety. The next day I felt exhausted and anxious at the same time. Very weird feeling. I was so weak that I couldn't get out of bed. This is how my little personal hell started ;)
I remember that had one similar episode when I was 11. Back then, I also felt anxious but didn't really know what was wrong with me. I thought I was very sick, and that I was going to die. I remember that I was afraid to go to bed because I thought that I might never wake up again. The anxiety didn't stop me from going to school, though. It lasted for about a year, and then it disappeared. After that I remember feeling dizzy from time to time. But then it all passed and I forgot that it had ever happened. Now that I think about it over and over again, I just don't understand how can an 11 year old child have such problems. I just don't get it.
Now the anxiety is much stronger and much more disableing than it was when I was 11. I pretty much stay at home and feel sorry for myself. I know it's wrong and will do my best to change it ;) For quite a long time I thought that things would just ... get better with time. But they don't get better. So ... I have to work hard in order to improve. I know this is kind of obvious, but it took me a while to realise it ;) I decided to make consistent efforts everyday and just take one step at a time. Hopefully, things will get better.
I'm really happy I found you guys[8D] Thank you for reading my story. I'm sure that we're all gonna beat this. And I'm sure that after we get through this we're gonna be even happier that we were before. Good luck to everyone!
Take care,
Allie