jasemb
29-02-08, 13:12
Hi again everyone,
Sorry to bombard (which I feel like I’m doing at the moment, questions, questions)!
But just need some input into ways of dealing with things.
I’m sure if you’ve read the first post I put on the site, you can see that my particular anxiety is a bit of a weird (specific) one. That’s not to say that I don’t have a lot of other issues (low self esteem being a particular one).
I have a great wife, who tries to understand were my head is at, but ultimately I think it’s one of those things, were if you’ve never suffered with anxiety, it’s hard to truly understand. She’s better with me now, (after she sat in on a counselling session with me) but she did use to be a bit ‘pull your socks up’.’it’s all in your head’ (which to an extent is right, but she always says I should do it without medication; which I’m not personally convinced about). However, I think my constant fear cycle I’m in does begin to grate on her (which, as I’ve said I can understand, her having never suffered with it).
I’m finding it very difficult to cope. When I get home, my wife will ask me – ‘how are you?’ and I answer with ‘not too bad’, knowing full well, that I’m just trying to put on this brave front and my mind is in a dark place. I need to figure out how to relax, how to get my mind onto happy thoughts, and to stop the constant panic, and how to deal with this with a partner, who is trying to help, but doesn’t truly empathise due to lack of understanding.
I’m having CBT, on meds (again), try to question myself and trying to do written exercises – to questioning my faulty thinking (i.e. why is this going to happen to me, why am I going to be a victim, why tonight, etc), and also 5 step charts - The situation, automatic thoughts, feelings, rational response (to counteract the automatic thought). Taking Kalms, rescue remedy, drinking lots of camomile tea. I’m even doing EFT (hiding myself in the bathroom because it looks weird). But none of these things seen to take away the enormous sense of anxiety, fear and panic.
Every night I go to bed in a state of hyper awareness and fear.:unsure:
Is there anything else I can try? Relaxation? Or anything?
Just need to take my mind away from things, so I’d appreciate any input anyone can offer.
Sorry to bombard (which I feel like I’m doing at the moment, questions, questions)!
But just need some input into ways of dealing with things.
I’m sure if you’ve read the first post I put on the site, you can see that my particular anxiety is a bit of a weird (specific) one. That’s not to say that I don’t have a lot of other issues (low self esteem being a particular one).
I have a great wife, who tries to understand were my head is at, but ultimately I think it’s one of those things, were if you’ve never suffered with anxiety, it’s hard to truly understand. She’s better with me now, (after she sat in on a counselling session with me) but she did use to be a bit ‘pull your socks up’.’it’s all in your head’ (which to an extent is right, but she always says I should do it without medication; which I’m not personally convinced about). However, I think my constant fear cycle I’m in does begin to grate on her (which, as I’ve said I can understand, her having never suffered with it).
I’m finding it very difficult to cope. When I get home, my wife will ask me – ‘how are you?’ and I answer with ‘not too bad’, knowing full well, that I’m just trying to put on this brave front and my mind is in a dark place. I need to figure out how to relax, how to get my mind onto happy thoughts, and to stop the constant panic, and how to deal with this with a partner, who is trying to help, but doesn’t truly empathise due to lack of understanding.
I’m having CBT, on meds (again), try to question myself and trying to do written exercises – to questioning my faulty thinking (i.e. why is this going to happen to me, why am I going to be a victim, why tonight, etc), and also 5 step charts - The situation, automatic thoughts, feelings, rational response (to counteract the automatic thought). Taking Kalms, rescue remedy, drinking lots of camomile tea. I’m even doing EFT (hiding myself in the bathroom because it looks weird). But none of these things seen to take away the enormous sense of anxiety, fear and panic.
Every night I go to bed in a state of hyper awareness and fear.:unsure:
Is there anything else I can try? Relaxation? Or anything?
Just need to take my mind away from things, so I’d appreciate any input anyone can offer.