Angel64
05-03-08, 10:59
How many times do you hear, keep trying and the anxiety will get less the more you practice. Well I am now practicing and really making an effort to go with the flow.
Last year I wouldn't go out for days on end, if I did it would be planned down to the last detail, I would carry a bottle of water with me everywhere (not too sure why) and always had a plan for getting out of there !
This really is a slow process though, since new year, (so that is about 7 weeks) I have been practicing.
I have still had really bad days and stayed in, I have had things happen that arent't nice, car stolen, probs with kids, tummy bug, so it hasn't been plain sailing.
But I am gradually seeing the anxiety for what it is, and realising that bad mornings or days are not the end but just a blip on my road to recovery.
Today I took my bf to work, out of my secure zone, then me and my daughter went to Mcdonalds for breakfast and did an hours shopping. It isn't easy in the changing rooms I got a sudden blast of unreality, but this is because it is so unreal to me. Then I realised I had missed this so much, and we laughed as we walked to the car !
I also got a sharp pain in my stomache when out but just let it pass and didnt immediately run back to the car incase it was a heart attack, I told myself it was because I had just ate and then been racing around the shops.
I must say again though that it is the people on here, either encouraging me or me reading there achievements and wanting that for myself that are the best medicine.
And just to say, I am no stronger a person than anyone else I just have a goal and realise it is my time to achieve it.
Thanks everyone, and to everyone on the same road as me, Good luck, we can do It !!!!
Christine xx :flowers:
Last year I wouldn't go out for days on end, if I did it would be planned down to the last detail, I would carry a bottle of water with me everywhere (not too sure why) and always had a plan for getting out of there !
This really is a slow process though, since new year, (so that is about 7 weeks) I have been practicing.
I have still had really bad days and stayed in, I have had things happen that arent't nice, car stolen, probs with kids, tummy bug, so it hasn't been plain sailing.
But I am gradually seeing the anxiety for what it is, and realising that bad mornings or days are not the end but just a blip on my road to recovery.
Today I took my bf to work, out of my secure zone, then me and my daughter went to Mcdonalds for breakfast and did an hours shopping. It isn't easy in the changing rooms I got a sudden blast of unreality, but this is because it is so unreal to me. Then I realised I had missed this so much, and we laughed as we walked to the car !
I also got a sharp pain in my stomache when out but just let it pass and didnt immediately run back to the car incase it was a heart attack, I told myself it was because I had just ate and then been racing around the shops.
I must say again though that it is the people on here, either encouraging me or me reading there achievements and wanting that for myself that are the best medicine.
And just to say, I am no stronger a person than anyone else I just have a goal and realise it is my time to achieve it.
Thanks everyone, and to everyone on the same road as me, Good luck, we can do It !!!!
Christine xx :flowers: