dianes
05-03-08, 14:13
:yesyes: Sorry for the long post folks, but I feel great!! On monday I started a new goal, to walk with hubby (who is my full time carer) and our dog Tia over the fields. I have not been able to do this for nearly 3 yrs. Today I walked through the estate, down the two alley ways, under the tunnel out into the fields. My anxiety shot up again today as I walked out into the open feilds...it still looked so open and I felt extremely vunerable.. I stopped until I had got my breathing under control and set off down the path:ohmy:
1st Hurdle: The ditch, there is some grass then a ditch which runs along side the path. The catastrophic thoughts started 'what if Tia falls down the ditch? How will we get her out? even worse 'what if I fall down the ditch? 'Oh my God!? I stopped again, controlled breathing, babbled to hubby while he encouraged me to keep walking.
2nd Hurdle: The train, there is a fence which runs along side the ditch and beyond that is a train track, I nearly jumped out of my skin when a train went past, it seems so lound, I grabbed hold of 'life coach' (hubby) and hung on for grim death!! stopped dead, controlled breathing again and moved on to words of more encouragement.
3rd Hurdle: Alsation dog!! I love all types of animals but have been nervous of Alsations for as long as I can remember. As we were walking along the path I heard barking and looked up to see an Alsation running after a ball that its owner was throwing. I stopped dead!! while hubby said 'it's alright, it won't harm you, he's having too much fun with he's owner'. 'Yeah right!!' I thought. As we drew near the man called him and put him on his lead, shouted good morning to us as we walked by.
We went a little further, I looked down the path and exclaimed 'JESUS, I DON'T BELIEVE IT!!!' in the distance there was a woman riding a HORSE coming towards us! I stopped dead once more as the anxiety levels climbed up and looked at my hubby, he pulled me into him and gave me a cuddle as he burst out laughing:mad:
I could see the funny side of it as we turned around and made our way back home. I walked back with a spring in my step elated at what I had achieved and in the words of my grand kids felt a 'totally cool nan'. I am please to report 'chicken licken' arrived home without the sky falling on her head.
I can honestly say life is never boring!
Good luck everyone
Diane :yesyes:
Your imagination is always much worse than the reality
1st Hurdle: The ditch, there is some grass then a ditch which runs along side the path. The catastrophic thoughts started 'what if Tia falls down the ditch? How will we get her out? even worse 'what if I fall down the ditch? 'Oh my God!? I stopped again, controlled breathing, babbled to hubby while he encouraged me to keep walking.
2nd Hurdle: The train, there is a fence which runs along side the ditch and beyond that is a train track, I nearly jumped out of my skin when a train went past, it seems so lound, I grabbed hold of 'life coach' (hubby) and hung on for grim death!! stopped dead, controlled breathing again and moved on to words of more encouragement.
3rd Hurdle: Alsation dog!! I love all types of animals but have been nervous of Alsations for as long as I can remember. As we were walking along the path I heard barking and looked up to see an Alsation running after a ball that its owner was throwing. I stopped dead!! while hubby said 'it's alright, it won't harm you, he's having too much fun with he's owner'. 'Yeah right!!' I thought. As we drew near the man called him and put him on his lead, shouted good morning to us as we walked by.
We went a little further, I looked down the path and exclaimed 'JESUS, I DON'T BELIEVE IT!!!' in the distance there was a woman riding a HORSE coming towards us! I stopped dead once more as the anxiety levels climbed up and looked at my hubby, he pulled me into him and gave me a cuddle as he burst out laughing:mad:
I could see the funny side of it as we turned around and made our way back home. I walked back with a spring in my step elated at what I had achieved and in the words of my grand kids felt a 'totally cool nan'. I am please to report 'chicken licken' arrived home without the sky falling on her head.
I can honestly say life is never boring!
Good luck everyone
Diane :yesyes:
Your imagination is always much worse than the reality