millymol
09-03-08, 10:06
hello all members
hope everyone is ok and coping well here is a little bit about myself
i am a fellow sufferer i have been have panic attacks for the past three years it is nice to know i am not completely alone i have always had bad ocd for as long as i can remeber but never had panic/anxiety then three years ago two bad family things happened then i was out shopping (which i used to love) and something happened there and then out of the blue i had what i now know to be a panic attack that started the worst weekend of my life went to see the gp who put me on citalopram i was on these for about a year and they was not doing much good so gp changed me to sertraline one a day i had a bad time last august but since then was really fine feeling normal then two weeks ago out of the blue bang its back worse than ever do other members go months on end feeling fine?
when back to my gp ( was a different doctor ) he put me on diazepam told me only to take for three days no more i took two of these tablets they did work but didnt what to take more tablets as i know three would turn into three months he was not very understanding i asked for help asked could i have some cbt he said no not for one episode i try to tell him i have been like this for three years but i go months without haveing them ( with my panics i have only been to the gp about four times in three years with them as i know this sounds daft but i know myself i am a good mother to my two beautiful sons but i thought if i keeped going to the gp they might say i cant look after my sons well because of the panics and take the boys off me ) so i try to cope not to go to the gp anyway after more or less begging him he has ref me but says the waiting list are about a year i cannot afford to go private he said as i was walking out next time ask to see a more understanding doctor i think some gps see people like us as attenion seekers when back to see the nurse who doulbled my dose of sertraline
this time the panic are bad i feel humiliated,anxiety,anxious,palpitations have a swallowing phobias at the moment feeling totally worthless i dread wakeing up in the mornings as mornings are bad for me i seem to go at 100 mph i tell myself to stop but it does not work dont want to leave the house but i have to take/collect my son from school it is so soul destroying i do have a lovely family who understand but i feel like a let down to them i feel they are getting fed up of me but they say dont be silly at the moment i take my tablets i also swear by my bach r r i drink camomile tea take b1 vitiams i want to try st johns wort but not sure i do smoke when i feel like this i smoke more which is makeing me bad i just feel this time i cant kick myself out of this viscious circle someone who used to suffer the same told me when the panic comes fight it think come on hit me with your best shot i am not afraid anymore this did help but i still feel anxious all day i sleep well at night but i am totally drawn in the afternoons i cant keep my eyes open half the time but the other day i had a afternnon nap when i woke up my sister took me to a&e because i had the worst attack i have ever had now i dare not nap in the afternnon do members think drinking tea/coeffe make it worst or food that we eat what helps other members ?
came across this wonderful site by chance yesterday its a godsend so many lovely people and storys like mine i thought i was alone
so sorry about the long post but it is so nice to get it off my chest to people who understand what you are going through
hop[e you all have a lovely day
hope everyone is ok and coping well here is a little bit about myself
i am a fellow sufferer i have been have panic attacks for the past three years it is nice to know i am not completely alone i have always had bad ocd for as long as i can remeber but never had panic/anxiety then three years ago two bad family things happened then i was out shopping (which i used to love) and something happened there and then out of the blue i had what i now know to be a panic attack that started the worst weekend of my life went to see the gp who put me on citalopram i was on these for about a year and they was not doing much good so gp changed me to sertraline one a day i had a bad time last august but since then was really fine feeling normal then two weeks ago out of the blue bang its back worse than ever do other members go months on end feeling fine?
when back to my gp ( was a different doctor ) he put me on diazepam told me only to take for three days no more i took two of these tablets they did work but didnt what to take more tablets as i know three would turn into three months he was not very understanding i asked for help asked could i have some cbt he said no not for one episode i try to tell him i have been like this for three years but i go months without haveing them ( with my panics i have only been to the gp about four times in three years with them as i know this sounds daft but i know myself i am a good mother to my two beautiful sons but i thought if i keeped going to the gp they might say i cant look after my sons well because of the panics and take the boys off me ) so i try to cope not to go to the gp anyway after more or less begging him he has ref me but says the waiting list are about a year i cannot afford to go private he said as i was walking out next time ask to see a more understanding doctor i think some gps see people like us as attenion seekers when back to see the nurse who doulbled my dose of sertraline
this time the panic are bad i feel humiliated,anxiety,anxious,palpitations have a swallowing phobias at the moment feeling totally worthless i dread wakeing up in the mornings as mornings are bad for me i seem to go at 100 mph i tell myself to stop but it does not work dont want to leave the house but i have to take/collect my son from school it is so soul destroying i do have a lovely family who understand but i feel like a let down to them i feel they are getting fed up of me but they say dont be silly at the moment i take my tablets i also swear by my bach r r i drink camomile tea take b1 vitiams i want to try st johns wort but not sure i do smoke when i feel like this i smoke more which is makeing me bad i just feel this time i cant kick myself out of this viscious circle someone who used to suffer the same told me when the panic comes fight it think come on hit me with your best shot i am not afraid anymore this did help but i still feel anxious all day i sleep well at night but i am totally drawn in the afternoons i cant keep my eyes open half the time but the other day i had a afternnon nap when i woke up my sister took me to a&e because i had the worst attack i have ever had now i dare not nap in the afternnon do members think drinking tea/coeffe make it worst or food that we eat what helps other members ?
came across this wonderful site by chance yesterday its a godsend so many lovely people and storys like mine i thought i was alone
so sorry about the long post but it is so nice to get it off my chest to people who understand what you are going through
hop[e you all have a lovely day