Why do I do this - help needed

[Emira7]

Hey All

Well I lasted my weekend away, had one panic attack. But I have done something silly.
On Friday - please don't ask me why, i decided to look up the Wolff Parkinson White Syndrome thing out of curiosity (my doc thought I may ahve this but sent my ECG to the Cardiologist - it all came back fine) I read stories of people with it who said they had ECG's done and it was not picked up on from those, and now I am panicking. I keep thinking I may have it again. And I am stressing, I feel so touchy and snappy. I keep listening out for my heart beating fast, thinking it is, then realising it isn't.
I hate my mind sometimes, why am I doing this? I know I shouldn't be but I feel totally paranoid.
I have the doctors tonight, should I be upfront and tell her that I am panicking again. I feel such a fool. It has gone to a specialist and I still can't chill...

I am trying to keep it together as at home alone with the kids today.

Love to you all
Emira

[Mumto2]

Definatley tell your Dr, It will make you feel better when you come away and think about things rationally, and it always helps to talk to someone else anyway.

So sorry your going through this.

Carrie

[Emira7]

I feel so silly, I am trying to reason with myself. For god sake a cardiologist has looked at it and said its fine!!

Aggghhhh why can't I stop this circle of rubbish negative thoughts

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[chalky]

Hi Emira,

Every positive action which you can take to counter the negative thinking will help.Tell the Doctor.
Best wishes,
Chalky

[Dreamer029]

Emira,
Sometimes I enjoy reading these posts because I am a physician assistant student and I can help to answer some of them. WPW syndrome is when the electrical impulse reaches the ventricles (pumpers) of your heart to soon. I think if your ECG came back fine you are in the clear! ECGs show the electrical impulses of your heart, so it would have shown that you had an abnormality, if the Dr. is confident in saying all is fine, then rest assured. Any electrical abnormality such as WPW would have shown up!

Lots of Love,
Lauren

[Emira7]

Hey

Thank you for all your words. I am really anxious today and still panicking - I had to run for the bus, which then makes me scared I will keel over or something...

Lauren thank you for that. I have had a cardiologist look at it who said its normal, I felt better about that for about 2 weeks then the old Health Anxiety starts to creep back. I haev private messaged you also.

I spoke to my doctor last night and was honest, and said even though she told me I was OK I am still doubting her, and that if I was really honest with myself that I knew I was being irrational. And that I am always panicking about my health. So she is forwarding me for counselling, and CBT to see if we can crack this.

It does not help I work in the NHS and very closely with Doctors every day so I am privy to alot of medical speak and sit in on meetings with patient cases etc... Not good for someone like me hey, maybe a new career path is needed LOL!

Emira
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