paradox
11-03-08, 21:29
Hi,
this is harder than I thought it would be. I'm generally a mess. I seem to have a little bit of everything. Anxiety, depression, BDD, OCD, agoraphobia ... Talk about labels!
At the moment I'm debating whether to take meds or not as I'm feeling overwhelmed by suicidal thoughts. Acutally I can't make any sense of my thoughts at all. Hence the reason for joining here tonight.
I've never done this before. No doubt I'm alienating people already with my self-pitying ramblings. Tonights bout of anxiety began with of all things, my neighbours gate banging incessantly. Yep ... I'm barking.
Tomorrow is a big day. Psychiatric appointment. After years of refusing, I've finally agreed to a change of meds. I've big issues with side effects ... mainly worries over weight gain. Plus I've had some spectacularly bad reactions to meds in the past.
Look I don't know what else to say. I think I'm pretty supportive given the chance. Tonight probably wasn't the best night for me to the introduction thingy.
Should have probably just taken my meds and shut up.
Sorry. And take care ♥
this is harder than I thought it would be. I'm generally a mess. I seem to have a little bit of everything. Anxiety, depression, BDD, OCD, agoraphobia ... Talk about labels!
At the moment I'm debating whether to take meds or not as I'm feeling overwhelmed by suicidal thoughts. Acutally I can't make any sense of my thoughts at all. Hence the reason for joining here tonight.
I've never done this before. No doubt I'm alienating people already with my self-pitying ramblings. Tonights bout of anxiety began with of all things, my neighbours gate banging incessantly. Yep ... I'm barking.
Tomorrow is a big day. Psychiatric appointment. After years of refusing, I've finally agreed to a change of meds. I've big issues with side effects ... mainly worries over weight gain. Plus I've had some spectacularly bad reactions to meds in the past.
Look I don't know what else to say. I think I'm pretty supportive given the chance. Tonight probably wasn't the best night for me to the introduction thingy.
Should have probably just taken my meds and shut up.
Sorry. And take care ♥