kaz79
13-03-08, 07:25
I thiught I was doing alright. I havent been able to carry on with the
hypnotherapy as I cant afford it but I have the cds and Ive got a job which I hope to start after Easter. Things were looking up....or so I thought...
I had the day to myself (no kids) yesterday but it was spoilt by escalating anxiety during the day.
I was terrible on the train to see my niece and nearly got off a stop early coz I didnt think I would make it.
My solution (stupid though it was) was to sink a load of wine when I got to the pub where I was meeting my niece.
Bad move... Although I was alright for a while, later on I started to feel worse than before and felt really depressed.
I know I shouldt have drunk so much but I just wanted to ease the panic.
I had to take temazepam last night and I feel awful this morning coz the girls were up at six am. My partner is at work all day and I have no help.
I feel like Im back where I started at rock bottom:weep: :weep:
hypnotherapy as I cant afford it but I have the cds and Ive got a job which I hope to start after Easter. Things were looking up....or so I thought...
I had the day to myself (no kids) yesterday but it was spoilt by escalating anxiety during the day.
I was terrible on the train to see my niece and nearly got off a stop early coz I didnt think I would make it.
My solution (stupid though it was) was to sink a load of wine when I got to the pub where I was meeting my niece.
Bad move... Although I was alright for a while, later on I started to feel worse than before and felt really depressed.
I know I shouldt have drunk so much but I just wanted to ease the panic.
I had to take temazepam last night and I feel awful this morning coz the girls were up at six am. My partner is at work all day and I have no help.
I feel like Im back where I started at rock bottom:weep: :weep: