freckles
13-03-08, 12:07
Hi, my name is Cal, I'm 28 and have experienced panic attacks since i was 20, I am so glad I have found this site as i have always felt like i was the only one to feel this way.
I had my daughter 18mnths ago and since then i have really gone downhill. I have been taking sertraline for nearly a year now as my doctor said i was suffering from post partum post traumatic stress after haveing a horrible labour and birth.
I had horrible intrusive thoughts that were really hard to admit to my doctor and cpt nurse as i was worried they would take my baby away. I had thoughts of harming myself, my daughter, my husband even though I would never ever hurt anyone and i am so scared of dying that my thoughts of hurting myself seemed laughable.
I seemed to be better so my docter weaned me off sertraline in Jan 08 and i got worse, crying all the time, didnt want to go out or see anyone so once again i am taking the meds and i feel like i've failed. Now i'm waking up at 2am, 3am having panic attacks, more intrusive thoughts that i'm going to go mad and end up in home.
What I want more than anything is to just feel normal again (if there is such a thing!) and enjoy my time with my daughter who is my pride and joy so any help or support from you guys will be a great help.x:scared10:
I had my daughter 18mnths ago and since then i have really gone downhill. I have been taking sertraline for nearly a year now as my doctor said i was suffering from post partum post traumatic stress after haveing a horrible labour and birth.
I had horrible intrusive thoughts that were really hard to admit to my doctor and cpt nurse as i was worried they would take my baby away. I had thoughts of harming myself, my daughter, my husband even though I would never ever hurt anyone and i am so scared of dying that my thoughts of hurting myself seemed laughable.
I seemed to be better so my docter weaned me off sertraline in Jan 08 and i got worse, crying all the time, didnt want to go out or see anyone so once again i am taking the meds and i feel like i've failed. Now i'm waking up at 2am, 3am having panic attacks, more intrusive thoughts that i'm going to go mad and end up in home.
What I want more than anything is to just feel normal again (if there is such a thing!) and enjoy my time with my daughter who is my pride and joy so any help or support from you guys will be a great help.x:scared10: