Janieb
17-03-08, 09:17
Last night I was seriously disappointed with myself. I have been doing so darn well with my HA so much so it wasn't even crossing my mind as much, I even managed to watch a movie with a woman dying of cancer it in and not have this sense of impending doom afterwards, this was a week ago.
Anyhow, I must have eaten something last night which didn't quiet agree with me I got these pains in my stomach, now last time I felt like this I was violently ill. So kick start the panic, now I was sick and panicky and thinking that I might pass out so went to lie down, eventually I drifted off to sleep only to awake in full panic mode. I think I slept on my arm or something, because some part of me was numb and I was convinced everything had gone wrong and I was dying of a brain something. Like the impending "THIS IS IT" thought.
It was horrible, I got 2 hours sleep last night. Came on line and then my pc kept freezing, in the end I sat listening to a cd through the headphone to calm down. I am just so depressed by the set back. I am disappointed I couldn't handle it and calm down now the next day I am suffering and worried I am just going to return to my normal cycle of no sleep again!! I am still not 100% want it all to go away.
just wanted a ramble.
Anyhow, I must have eaten something last night which didn't quiet agree with me I got these pains in my stomach, now last time I felt like this I was violently ill. So kick start the panic, now I was sick and panicky and thinking that I might pass out so went to lie down, eventually I drifted off to sleep only to awake in full panic mode. I think I slept on my arm or something, because some part of me was numb and I was convinced everything had gone wrong and I was dying of a brain something. Like the impending "THIS IS IT" thought.
It was horrible, I got 2 hours sleep last night. Came on line and then my pc kept freezing, in the end I sat listening to a cd through the headphone to calm down. I am just so depressed by the set back. I am disappointed I couldn't handle it and calm down now the next day I am suffering and worried I am just going to return to my normal cycle of no sleep again!! I am still not 100% want it all to go away.
just wanted a ramble.