Gerry
18-03-08, 16:02
Hi everyone :blush:
I'm new to the site and thought the best way to start was to introduce myself.
My name is Gerry; I'm nearly 46, married with six children and live in Surrey. As well as being registered disabled with a number of physical conditions (HMS, EDS, ME..to name but a few) I also have what I call my psychological problems, in that I have suffered from recurrent severe depression since I was a child, I have panic Attacks, I get Anxious, I have O.C.D, Low self esteem, Palpitations, some degree of Agoraphobia and I constantly worry about dying. I am overweight because I can't exercise due to my disability. I rarely go out unless I am with someone else, can't get myself to parent's evenings because of panic attacks, and have no friends. I have people I know, but severed a life long friendship last year when I realised (after 45 years) that this person was simply using me to boost their own ego. I'm happy in my own company, but would like a friend. However I am hopeless at remembering details, faces, names etc, and when someone smiles at me because they recognise me, and I look back blankly, they assume I'm being standoffish, and give me a wide berth.
I always try to be polite to others, try to be objective in my views (seeing both sides to things) and try not to offend. However, this seems to make me an easy target for bullies who know I won't retaliate.
My depression of late has been bad to the point where I have contacted the Samaritans because I had been having suiscidal thoughts.
At the moment I see my life as a waste. I look around me in dispair every day at the mess, and wonder if I will ever be able to sort it out and be happy, or if I am destined to just live like this until I die because I simply don't have the get up and go needed to change the situation.
I did join another site a little while ago, similar to this, but based in the states. I found someone to chat to whom I felt had a similar situation to myself, but despite receiving up to five or six emails a day from her, none of them were her own work, just 'round robin' letters passed on by her. In the end I had to ask the site admin to remove my account because i was getting so wound up by the constant stream of 'waffle' she was forwarding to me. I didn't have the guts to tell her to stop, so I had to leave.
My hobbies include tracing my family tree and many different crafts.
Looking forward to chatting to some of you.
Gerry
:)
I'm new to the site and thought the best way to start was to introduce myself.
My name is Gerry; I'm nearly 46, married with six children and live in Surrey. As well as being registered disabled with a number of physical conditions (HMS, EDS, ME..to name but a few) I also have what I call my psychological problems, in that I have suffered from recurrent severe depression since I was a child, I have panic Attacks, I get Anxious, I have O.C.D, Low self esteem, Palpitations, some degree of Agoraphobia and I constantly worry about dying. I am overweight because I can't exercise due to my disability. I rarely go out unless I am with someone else, can't get myself to parent's evenings because of panic attacks, and have no friends. I have people I know, but severed a life long friendship last year when I realised (after 45 years) that this person was simply using me to boost their own ego. I'm happy in my own company, but would like a friend. However I am hopeless at remembering details, faces, names etc, and when someone smiles at me because they recognise me, and I look back blankly, they assume I'm being standoffish, and give me a wide berth.
I always try to be polite to others, try to be objective in my views (seeing both sides to things) and try not to offend. However, this seems to make me an easy target for bullies who know I won't retaliate.
My depression of late has been bad to the point where I have contacted the Samaritans because I had been having suiscidal thoughts.
At the moment I see my life as a waste. I look around me in dispair every day at the mess, and wonder if I will ever be able to sort it out and be happy, or if I am destined to just live like this until I die because I simply don't have the get up and go needed to change the situation.
I did join another site a little while ago, similar to this, but based in the states. I found someone to chat to whom I felt had a similar situation to myself, but despite receiving up to five or six emails a day from her, none of them were her own work, just 'round robin' letters passed on by her. In the end I had to ask the site admin to remove my account because i was getting so wound up by the constant stream of 'waffle' she was forwarding to me. I didn't have the guts to tell her to stop, so I had to leave.
My hobbies include tracing my family tree and many different crafts.
Looking forward to chatting to some of you.
Gerry
:)