sali
23-03-08, 15:35
Hey everyone, hope your all having a lovely easter,
Unfortunatley I suffered the worst attack of panic/anxiety ever early this morning. I'm feeling really low and depressed because of it because I feel I cant ever go out and have a drink with friends and come home and feel normal. It all started of as a great night, me and my close friends went out and had a drink, come home early hours of the morning.
Then all of a sudden the thought of going to bed became a terrifing thought. I began wondering around the house trying to keep myself busy, watch tv, read a book, go on the net but i was getting worse and worse.
I opened the window and propped myself against the sill but not even that was helping. Then I took a propanol pill to calm my racing heart and then I was convinced i was going to have a heart attack because i mixed medication and alcohol.
It got so bad i was practically dragging my partner out of bed screaming to take me to a&e. I was convinced that there was no recovering from this attack and that I was going to die from a heart attack. Then my heart began palpitating. I have never felt so terrified in all my life. My boyfriend literally had to hold me down for about half hour and tell me i was fine and that it was all in my mind and was strocking my hair and back.
I still havent gone sleep..i think i fell asleep for a hour at around 11 this morning. Now I just feel so heavy in my heart because I feel so depressed and useless..I'm only 24 and I cant live like this, I enjoy having a drink with my friends and I feel I cant even do that now. Ive only been to my GP the other day and he prescribed me propanol and I'm seeing a therapist on wednesday but I just feel this is never going to end.
Unfortunatley I suffered the worst attack of panic/anxiety ever early this morning. I'm feeling really low and depressed because of it because I feel I cant ever go out and have a drink with friends and come home and feel normal. It all started of as a great night, me and my close friends went out and had a drink, come home early hours of the morning.
Then all of a sudden the thought of going to bed became a terrifing thought. I began wondering around the house trying to keep myself busy, watch tv, read a book, go on the net but i was getting worse and worse.
I opened the window and propped myself against the sill but not even that was helping. Then I took a propanol pill to calm my racing heart and then I was convinced i was going to have a heart attack because i mixed medication and alcohol.
It got so bad i was practically dragging my partner out of bed screaming to take me to a&e. I was convinced that there was no recovering from this attack and that I was going to die from a heart attack. Then my heart began palpitating. I have never felt so terrified in all my life. My boyfriend literally had to hold me down for about half hour and tell me i was fine and that it was all in my mind and was strocking my hair and back.
I still havent gone sleep..i think i fell asleep for a hour at around 11 this morning. Now I just feel so heavy in my heart because I feel so depressed and useless..I'm only 24 and I cant live like this, I enjoy having a drink with my friends and I feel I cant even do that now. Ive only been to my GP the other day and he prescribed me propanol and I'm seeing a therapist on wednesday but I just feel this is never going to end.