m190
30-03-08, 18:48
hello all
im a 27 year old 3rd year University degree student and my lifes been turned upside down by a recent episode of depression and anxiety. on first reflection it appeared to have come out of nowhere, but in hindsight my close familly and I have concluded that it was most likely triggered by a highly stessful life event (the completion of my dissertation). i also have a history of recurrent depression and anxiety going back 10 years.
although this may seem quite trivial it should be noted that i am not an academic, yet find myself-and i can only blame myself, enolled on the second most academic course available. During the completion of this paper i neglected myself totally, in favour of consistent and relentless 12 hour days in order to maintain my second class honours target.
a couple of weeks after submitting my paper i developed depression for the second time since beginning my course. i soon stopped going out, switched my phone off, began to miss lectures and found it increasingly difficult even to leave my room. when i did leave it was to get away, not just from my housemates (who are good friends), but from people altogether. eventually my situation became so serious that not only was i eating meals alone in my car, id also found staying in my own house too much to handle.
At that point i involved my long suffering parents and GP who has slowly begun increasing my medication (Escitalopram). i am now living at home having cancelled a course placement. i plan to stay for another month until my course resumes during which i have final assignments to complete. it is now unavoidable that i graduate late but i recognise that my recovery must take priority.
although i currently feel little difference in myself i.e. i still experience considerable anxiety in social situations (even in the presence of familly) i am now at least, living in an environment in which i have some hope of completing my course; and for that i feel very fortunate.
sorry for the rant, i hope others can empathise.
kind regards
im a 27 year old 3rd year University degree student and my lifes been turned upside down by a recent episode of depression and anxiety. on first reflection it appeared to have come out of nowhere, but in hindsight my close familly and I have concluded that it was most likely triggered by a highly stessful life event (the completion of my dissertation). i also have a history of recurrent depression and anxiety going back 10 years.
although this may seem quite trivial it should be noted that i am not an academic, yet find myself-and i can only blame myself, enolled on the second most academic course available. During the completion of this paper i neglected myself totally, in favour of consistent and relentless 12 hour days in order to maintain my second class honours target.
a couple of weeks after submitting my paper i developed depression for the second time since beginning my course. i soon stopped going out, switched my phone off, began to miss lectures and found it increasingly difficult even to leave my room. when i did leave it was to get away, not just from my housemates (who are good friends), but from people altogether. eventually my situation became so serious that not only was i eating meals alone in my car, id also found staying in my own house too much to handle.
At that point i involved my long suffering parents and GP who has slowly begun increasing my medication (Escitalopram). i am now living at home having cancelled a course placement. i plan to stay for another month until my course resumes during which i have final assignments to complete. it is now unavoidable that i graduate late but i recognise that my recovery must take priority.
although i currently feel little difference in myself i.e. i still experience considerable anxiety in social situations (even in the presence of familly) i am now at least, living in an environment in which i have some hope of completing my course; and for that i feel very fortunate.
sorry for the rant, i hope others can empathise.
kind regards