phoebe
31-03-08, 12:33
Hi,
My names Phoebe, I'm 27, been suffering from anxiety since Nov last year. Have spoken to some of you in the chatroom which has really helped but kinda wanted some reasuurance on one of my symptoms, this desensitization thingy......
Basically scaring the c**p out of me, so much so that I haven;t gone to work today. I seem to get it more when I'm driving which has now made me scared to drive! For example drove somewhere the other day and had to turn around to make sure I hadn't run someone over as I went into daydream mode, of course I think we would all know if we had run someone over but my brain doesn't seem to want to believe this so I had to turn around and go check, this really makes me feel like I'm losing the plot!
Last Friday I drove for about an hour and felt like I kept switching off and going into a daydream like state, now when I do this I keep trying to remember various stages of the drive like what car I was driving behind or anything that I can remember so I can convince myself I didn't switch off completely and am not a danger to the road! Its almost like my brains so full up with worry there's no room for me to do two things at once, i.e drive and think!
I was also in Next the same day and whilst paying for something went into daydream mode again and then paniced and thought what if I'd been stood there for ages with a blank expression on my face not realizing the sales girl was waiting to give me my change?!!!!
I did some 'research' on this desensitization thingy on the net and it said it can be the start of a multiple personality desorder, how true I don't know but am now convinced I am going to get this! When I asked my councillor about this she assured me it was just another symptom of anxiety but it seems to have got worse so now I just think I'm going mad! All of my other symptoms have gone and I was really feeling better, then this gets worse and I feel like I'm back to square one again. Sometimes I also feel there's a fog in front of my head and I can't think clearly, had this alot recently, not good when working in a busy Office, another reason I haven't gone work today.
Anyway thanks for letting me have a rant, any feed back would be extremely welcome :). Also thanks again to all the peeps I've spoken to in chatroom, its really helped.
Phoebe xxx
My names Phoebe, I'm 27, been suffering from anxiety since Nov last year. Have spoken to some of you in the chatroom which has really helped but kinda wanted some reasuurance on one of my symptoms, this desensitization thingy......
Basically scaring the c**p out of me, so much so that I haven;t gone to work today. I seem to get it more when I'm driving which has now made me scared to drive! For example drove somewhere the other day and had to turn around to make sure I hadn't run someone over as I went into daydream mode, of course I think we would all know if we had run someone over but my brain doesn't seem to want to believe this so I had to turn around and go check, this really makes me feel like I'm losing the plot!
Last Friday I drove for about an hour and felt like I kept switching off and going into a daydream like state, now when I do this I keep trying to remember various stages of the drive like what car I was driving behind or anything that I can remember so I can convince myself I didn't switch off completely and am not a danger to the road! Its almost like my brains so full up with worry there's no room for me to do two things at once, i.e drive and think!
I was also in Next the same day and whilst paying for something went into daydream mode again and then paniced and thought what if I'd been stood there for ages with a blank expression on my face not realizing the sales girl was waiting to give me my change?!!!!
I did some 'research' on this desensitization thingy on the net and it said it can be the start of a multiple personality desorder, how true I don't know but am now convinced I am going to get this! When I asked my councillor about this she assured me it was just another symptom of anxiety but it seems to have got worse so now I just think I'm going mad! All of my other symptoms have gone and I was really feeling better, then this gets worse and I feel like I'm back to square one again. Sometimes I also feel there's a fog in front of my head and I can't think clearly, had this alot recently, not good when working in a busy Office, another reason I haven't gone work today.
Anyway thanks for letting me have a rant, any feed back would be extremely welcome :). Also thanks again to all the peeps I've spoken to in chatroom, its really helped.
Phoebe xxx