aroha
04-04-08, 18:36
Hi there
I have just found this forum and only recently had the courage to confront my anxiety head on. I had a very small episode of OCD checking when I was 15 and my mum sent me off to a psychologist and it was pretty much sorted very quickly.
I was a very mild checker but nothing too much and I wouldn't consider I had a mental health diagnosis for most of my life up until now....
Eight years ago my mum died, horribly and traumatically and then 2 months later I got pregnant. I developed severe OCD and anxiety (GAD) that I would hurt the baby, something I ate or did would cause the baby to die, I become obsessed with germs, contamination - all of it. My hands were washed so much they cracked and bled most of the time.
You're getting the picture probably, the OCD and anxiety has continued for the last 8 years, worse when I am pregnant (I have 3 kids) and it is much better now, but I still struggle with lots of anxiety and OCD related to things about something happening to the children.
I am seeing an excellent therapist and I am getting there. I realise I can't live my life on what ifs and I need to just live for now - and enjoy it.
The last few months have been a big step for me, because I have spent 8 years hiding the OCD and the anxiety - because of stigma really. Now I don't want any more secrets about it, I'm going to get on top of this and find myself again. I lost so much of who I was, and I really used to like me!
that's all from me for me
thanks:)
I have just found this forum and only recently had the courage to confront my anxiety head on. I had a very small episode of OCD checking when I was 15 and my mum sent me off to a psychologist and it was pretty much sorted very quickly.
I was a very mild checker but nothing too much and I wouldn't consider I had a mental health diagnosis for most of my life up until now....
Eight years ago my mum died, horribly and traumatically and then 2 months later I got pregnant. I developed severe OCD and anxiety (GAD) that I would hurt the baby, something I ate or did would cause the baby to die, I become obsessed with germs, contamination - all of it. My hands were washed so much they cracked and bled most of the time.
You're getting the picture probably, the OCD and anxiety has continued for the last 8 years, worse when I am pregnant (I have 3 kids) and it is much better now, but I still struggle with lots of anxiety and OCD related to things about something happening to the children.
I am seeing an excellent therapist and I am getting there. I realise I can't live my life on what ifs and I need to just live for now - and enjoy it.
The last few months have been a big step for me, because I have spent 8 years hiding the OCD and the anxiety - because of stigma really. Now I don't want any more secrets about it, I'm going to get on top of this and find myself again. I lost so much of who I was, and I really used to like me!
that's all from me for me
thanks:)