poppet
07-04-08, 13:13
HI THERE!
HOW'S IT GOING?
MY NAME IS POPPET AND I'M A 25 YR OLD MESS FROM NORTH WEST LONDON.
TO CUT A LOOOHNNG STORY SHORT(ISH).......
PROMISING LOVING CHILDHOOD, EXCELLENT EDUCATION/SOCIAL LIFE ETC.:yesyes:
AGED 16 WITH PERFECT RELATIONSHIP/LIFE, I STARTED SMOKING WEED, DROPPED OUT OF SCHOOL,CHEATED ON THE RELATIONSHIP BREAKING HIS HEART AND DESTROYING ALL TRUST IN ANYONE,FELL IN LOVE WITH HIS BEST FRIEND,BETRAYED MY PARENTS,AND LETS SAY I WORKED IN A SLIGHTLY UNETHICAL INDUSTRY....(NO SWEAT SHOPS INVOLVED & GOOD MONEY).:winks:
PROCCEEDED TO MUDDLE ON & THROUGH LOTS OF WORK ON MY PART, EMBARKED ON WHAT HAS TURNED OUT TO BE A 6YR RELATIONSHIP WITH THE BEST FRIEND. MADDLY (HA!) IN LOVE WITH HIM ALTHOUGH HE IS NO LONGER THAT MAN, WE ARE STILL TOGETHER. THE RELATIONSHIP HAS RESULTED IN ME MISSING OUT ON MANY MANY OPPERTUNITIES (PROMISING MODEL/T.V PRESENTER), PUT ME IN HUGE FINANCIAL DIFFICULTIES (DEBATING BANKRUPTSY),LOST FRIENDS AND FAMILYS RESPECT/FAITH/TRUST AND LANDED ME IN HOSPITAL ON MORE THAN ONE OCCASION (CURRENTLY TYRING TO TYPE WITH BROKEN HAND!)
I HAVE ZERO MOTIVATION (EVEN WHEN SOBER), NO CONFIDENCE, NO SOCIAL LIFE, NO VISIBLE PROSPECTS,GUILT,HUGE ANXIETY & DEPRESSION, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND SLEEPLESS NIGHTS SPENT SWEATING LIKE A B***H! I HAVE NO INTREST IN MY APPEARENCE ANYMORE NOR CARE ABOUT MUCH AND CARE ABOUT EVERYTHING AT THE SAME TIME.I CONSTANTLY WORRY AND GET PARANOID AND RECLUSIVE....I ALSO HAVE O.C.D. GREAT!
SO...MY DOCTOR HAS PRESCRIBED ME CITALOPRAM (20MG).
SHE KNOWS I SMOKE (SELF MEDICATE) BUT SAYS I'LL SOON STOP NATURALLY AND TO TAKE THE 'COURSE'.
I HAVE READ SOME HORROR STORIES REGARDING THIS DRUG AND MANY MIXED REVIEWS SO TO SPEAK!
I KNOW I NEED TALK THERAPY AND TO GET RID OF THE BOYFRIEND (SOMETHING I HAVE TRIED TO DO IN MOMENTS OF STRENGTH) AND THAT A BOX OF PILLS IS NOT GOING TO TAKE MY DEBT AWAY......
I REALLY NEED TO HEAR FROM ANYONE WHO CAN SHARE ADVICE /EXPERIENCE/INFO/AND DARE I SAY IT SUPPORT!
SORRY TO HAVE BORED YOU....IM A BIT MIXED UP AT THE MOMENT!
HOPE YOU ARE WELL AND THANKS FOR READING.
SAY HI IF YOU LIKE!
MANY THANKS.
XXPOPPETXX......ISSUES!!! :whistles:
HOW'S IT GOING?
MY NAME IS POPPET AND I'M A 25 YR OLD MESS FROM NORTH WEST LONDON.
TO CUT A LOOOHNNG STORY SHORT(ISH).......
PROMISING LOVING CHILDHOOD, EXCELLENT EDUCATION/SOCIAL LIFE ETC.:yesyes:
AGED 16 WITH PERFECT RELATIONSHIP/LIFE, I STARTED SMOKING WEED, DROPPED OUT OF SCHOOL,CHEATED ON THE RELATIONSHIP BREAKING HIS HEART AND DESTROYING ALL TRUST IN ANYONE,FELL IN LOVE WITH HIS BEST FRIEND,BETRAYED MY PARENTS,AND LETS SAY I WORKED IN A SLIGHTLY UNETHICAL INDUSTRY....(NO SWEAT SHOPS INVOLVED & GOOD MONEY).:winks:
PROCCEEDED TO MUDDLE ON & THROUGH LOTS OF WORK ON MY PART, EMBARKED ON WHAT HAS TURNED OUT TO BE A 6YR RELATIONSHIP WITH THE BEST FRIEND. MADDLY (HA!) IN LOVE WITH HIM ALTHOUGH HE IS NO LONGER THAT MAN, WE ARE STILL TOGETHER. THE RELATIONSHIP HAS RESULTED IN ME MISSING OUT ON MANY MANY OPPERTUNITIES (PROMISING MODEL/T.V PRESENTER), PUT ME IN HUGE FINANCIAL DIFFICULTIES (DEBATING BANKRUPTSY),LOST FRIENDS AND FAMILYS RESPECT/FAITH/TRUST AND LANDED ME IN HOSPITAL ON MORE THAN ONE OCCASION (CURRENTLY TYRING TO TYPE WITH BROKEN HAND!)
I HAVE ZERO MOTIVATION (EVEN WHEN SOBER), NO CONFIDENCE, NO SOCIAL LIFE, NO VISIBLE PROSPECTS,GUILT,HUGE ANXIETY & DEPRESSION, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND SLEEPLESS NIGHTS SPENT SWEATING LIKE A B***H! I HAVE NO INTREST IN MY APPEARENCE ANYMORE NOR CARE ABOUT MUCH AND CARE ABOUT EVERYTHING AT THE SAME TIME.I CONSTANTLY WORRY AND GET PARANOID AND RECLUSIVE....I ALSO HAVE O.C.D. GREAT!
SO...MY DOCTOR HAS PRESCRIBED ME CITALOPRAM (20MG).
SHE KNOWS I SMOKE (SELF MEDICATE) BUT SAYS I'LL SOON STOP NATURALLY AND TO TAKE THE 'COURSE'.
I HAVE READ SOME HORROR STORIES REGARDING THIS DRUG AND MANY MIXED REVIEWS SO TO SPEAK!
I KNOW I NEED TALK THERAPY AND TO GET RID OF THE BOYFRIEND (SOMETHING I HAVE TRIED TO DO IN MOMENTS OF STRENGTH) AND THAT A BOX OF PILLS IS NOT GOING TO TAKE MY DEBT AWAY......
I REALLY NEED TO HEAR FROM ANYONE WHO CAN SHARE ADVICE /EXPERIENCE/INFO/AND DARE I SAY IT SUPPORT!
SORRY TO HAVE BORED YOU....IM A BIT MIXED UP AT THE MOMENT!
HOPE YOU ARE WELL AND THANKS FOR READING.
SAY HI IF YOU LIKE!
MANY THANKS.
XXPOPPETXX......ISSUES!!! :whistles: