jellybean43
08-04-08, 18:35
I have had a really nice day. My brother called(who i dont see that often) and it was great chatting to him for a few hours as he is going through a nasty divorce and i always feel as if i have been some help to him.
Anyhow, obviously whilst he was here i couldnt feel my lumps and bumps-----and after he had gone i had to go straight out to do some shopping---so total of about 6 hours with no feeling.
So, just now i start again and think that under my arm feels more raised than the other. OH says it has always been the same and cos i am a couple of stone overweight it feels quite squidgy(think thats the right word). I know that deep down this is true but why do i keep doing this?????????
ARRRRRRRRRR-----it is driving me absolutely crazy.
Then, i start thinking things like i may not see my bros kids grow up as i might be so ill!!!!
PLEASE, PLEASE tell me to stop.
Mind you 6 hours today of no feeling was good and i actually managed to forget my worries whilst my bro was here.
Hope everyone else is ok xxxxx
Anyhow, obviously whilst he was here i couldnt feel my lumps and bumps-----and after he had gone i had to go straight out to do some shopping---so total of about 6 hours with no feeling.
So, just now i start again and think that under my arm feels more raised than the other. OH says it has always been the same and cos i am a couple of stone overweight it feels quite squidgy(think thats the right word). I know that deep down this is true but why do i keep doing this?????????
ARRRRRRRRRR-----it is driving me absolutely crazy.
Then, i start thinking things like i may not see my bros kids grow up as i might be so ill!!!!
PLEASE, PLEASE tell me to stop.
Mind you 6 hours today of no feeling was good and i actually managed to forget my worries whilst my bro was here.
Hope everyone else is ok xxxxx