xtinkerbellx
11-04-08, 16:43
i feel like a crazy person writing this but here goes..
i get very anxious over all sorts of things, there are loads of different things that cause me anxiety. and one at a time they pop up. at the time, the one thing that pops up seems like the biggest scariest horrible thing ever and that it will never leave me and all the other "thoughts" seem like nothing. then that thought goes (not completely but i try to tell my mind its nothing worth getting anxious over) sometimes after a few hours. sometimes it doesnt go away for a week or something! then another one of my regular thoughts pops up and it goes the same way, feeling like THAT is the most horrible thing ever. :unsure: im too scared to write my thoughts on here in case they come true :( in my head i know they wont though :S
i rarely get relief from these unwanted thoughts, they just take it in turns to pop into my head and sometimes they turn into panic attacks and i feel down and sick and cant function. sometimes i just feel a bit down but cope with them a bit better.
i also feel that if i dont do certain things, i will have a panic or bad things will happen. like if i dont wash my hands, put the soap down, then put it up and wash my hands again. and i feel like i have to confess everything to my partner or parents. like if i didnt put sudocrem on my baby after one nappy change, or if i said hello to a boy when i went round the shops. i will probably feel the need to confess i have joined this site, but im hoping not. as that, and all my other things dont need confessing.
what on earth is wrong with me, i feel loopy! i want to get rid of all my triggers and thoughts! i felt like this before having a baby but its gone worse since ive had her! Health visitor said could be PND but i dont think so.
sorry to go on and there is probably more but this will do for now! apologies again!:)
i get very anxious over all sorts of things, there are loads of different things that cause me anxiety. and one at a time they pop up. at the time, the one thing that pops up seems like the biggest scariest horrible thing ever and that it will never leave me and all the other "thoughts" seem like nothing. then that thought goes (not completely but i try to tell my mind its nothing worth getting anxious over) sometimes after a few hours. sometimes it doesnt go away for a week or something! then another one of my regular thoughts pops up and it goes the same way, feeling like THAT is the most horrible thing ever. :unsure: im too scared to write my thoughts on here in case they come true :( in my head i know they wont though :S
i rarely get relief from these unwanted thoughts, they just take it in turns to pop into my head and sometimes they turn into panic attacks and i feel down and sick and cant function. sometimes i just feel a bit down but cope with them a bit better.
i also feel that if i dont do certain things, i will have a panic or bad things will happen. like if i dont wash my hands, put the soap down, then put it up and wash my hands again. and i feel like i have to confess everything to my partner or parents. like if i didnt put sudocrem on my baby after one nappy change, or if i said hello to a boy when i went round the shops. i will probably feel the need to confess i have joined this site, but im hoping not. as that, and all my other things dont need confessing.
what on earth is wrong with me, i feel loopy! i want to get rid of all my triggers and thoughts! i felt like this before having a baby but its gone worse since ive had her! Health visitor said could be PND but i dont think so.
sorry to go on and there is probably more but this will do for now! apologies again!:)