jellybean43
15-04-08, 13:10
Hi everyone!
Well I have finally decided to go to see a doctor about my health anxiety!
I am really getting myself in to some states some days---other days i am totally fine!!Yesterday was a bad day when i spent the entire day feeling and poking for lumps. When OH came in from work i was convinced that the back of my neck at the top of back bone(if that makes any sense) was swollen til i felt his and it was nearly the same!!!He has said to me what i already know--that i do need to tell my GP all my fears.
The thing is, as many of you know, i moved last September and therefore had to leave a fab GP behind---one that i had trusted for 24 years!!!!
The new doctor(whom i have only seen twice) was great but i did feel very scared going and even worse cos he said straight away i had to go and have the Xray of chest and neck---actually i nearly freaked out!!!I cant get to see him tomorrow(not sure i wanted to see him again or not!) so i am seeing a new doc at the practice.I am really really worried about going as i feel he will feel the swelling and send me immediately to hospital--despite all those tests coming back clear at Xmas!!The swelling is no different in size but i am continually checking everywhere for lumps/bumps on a very very frequent basis which, i know just cannot go on!!It is on my mind from morning til night and when i wake in the night too----so tiring!!!!
I have a holiday booked in 10 days and i think that i wont be going as they will say it is sooo serious. PLEASE CAN SOMEONE HELP ME THINK SOME POSITIVE THOUGHTS!!!!
What i really want to say to the doctor is all the above---that i got results back fine(which he will see on screen) and that i am obsessed with the fact that i have something serious and that i am checking myself all the time.I also want to tell him all the stuff that has recently gone on---house move that was a year of huge hassle, my parents coming back in my life out of the blue after 10 years of not seeing them(just before Xmas)----I am pleased that has happened but another thing to add to my stress list etc etc!!
Can anyone advise if i am doing the right thing going tomorrow? I was going to wait til after hol but i am not sure i can go away feeling the way i do!!!!
Thanks everyone xxxx
Well I have finally decided to go to see a doctor about my health anxiety!
I am really getting myself in to some states some days---other days i am totally fine!!Yesterday was a bad day when i spent the entire day feeling and poking for lumps. When OH came in from work i was convinced that the back of my neck at the top of back bone(if that makes any sense) was swollen til i felt his and it was nearly the same!!!He has said to me what i already know--that i do need to tell my GP all my fears.
The thing is, as many of you know, i moved last September and therefore had to leave a fab GP behind---one that i had trusted for 24 years!!!!
The new doctor(whom i have only seen twice) was great but i did feel very scared going and even worse cos he said straight away i had to go and have the Xray of chest and neck---actually i nearly freaked out!!!I cant get to see him tomorrow(not sure i wanted to see him again or not!) so i am seeing a new doc at the practice.I am really really worried about going as i feel he will feel the swelling and send me immediately to hospital--despite all those tests coming back clear at Xmas!!The swelling is no different in size but i am continually checking everywhere for lumps/bumps on a very very frequent basis which, i know just cannot go on!!It is on my mind from morning til night and when i wake in the night too----so tiring!!!!
I have a holiday booked in 10 days and i think that i wont be going as they will say it is sooo serious. PLEASE CAN SOMEONE HELP ME THINK SOME POSITIVE THOUGHTS!!!!
What i really want to say to the doctor is all the above---that i got results back fine(which he will see on screen) and that i am obsessed with the fact that i have something serious and that i am checking myself all the time.I also want to tell him all the stuff that has recently gone on---house move that was a year of huge hassle, my parents coming back in my life out of the blue after 10 years of not seeing them(just before Xmas)----I am pleased that has happened but another thing to add to my stress list etc etc!!
Can anyone advise if i am doing the right thing going tomorrow? I was going to wait til after hol but i am not sure i can go away feeling the way i do!!!!
Thanks everyone xxxx