anastacia-72
16-04-08, 10:04
Hello Everybody,
A couple of weeks ago i posted my first message on this forum and i told you that later on i would tell my “story of panic”. I suffer from it for about 20 years and I have very good times and very bad times like to the most of you I think. A few weeks ago I still had it under control however I was feeling that it was coming back. But at the moment it is back completely and I am exhausted. That is why I decided not to tell you my story (for now) but just let you know what is wrong with me at the moment. Perhaps I can get some good help or advice from you how to coop and how to get better again. Because I think like the most of you, I cannot use this panic now I am in the middle of lots of things and if I have to stop these things than I will loose a lot of chances. At the moment I completely freak out if I walk or ride somewhere where there is no place for me to go inside. Like in a street and there is no shop where I can go for help (if needed of course, but that is my thinking). So mainly during the day from about 10.00 am till 6.00 pm everything is almost ok (because shops and things are open) but before and after these times it is almost impossible for me to go outside because if I am in a street and there is no opportunity for me to go inside somewhere than I get the feeling that I become crazy. I really do not know what to do than. I sometimes start running very hard to reach a spot where I can go inside, sometimes I also want to ring someone’s doorbell just to ask for help. What kind of help I do not know, but I just want someone near to me that moment. Because you know, all these panick starts when I am alone not when I am with someone; And it does not have to be someone I know, it can be a stranger. When I am at the office during the day everything is allright, but I think the whole day about how to get back to the metro, because than I have to walk a street in which there are no shops or companies. And sometimes I think I cannot even walk, because it feels like my legs are crossed!
Ok , this is it for now; I just wanted to spill it out somewhere people can understand me and also have similar problems. I hope someone recognise this and maybe can tell me how he copes with it.
Kind regards to all of you,
Anastacia
A couple of weeks ago i posted my first message on this forum and i told you that later on i would tell my “story of panic”. I suffer from it for about 20 years and I have very good times and very bad times like to the most of you I think. A few weeks ago I still had it under control however I was feeling that it was coming back. But at the moment it is back completely and I am exhausted. That is why I decided not to tell you my story (for now) but just let you know what is wrong with me at the moment. Perhaps I can get some good help or advice from you how to coop and how to get better again. Because I think like the most of you, I cannot use this panic now I am in the middle of lots of things and if I have to stop these things than I will loose a lot of chances. At the moment I completely freak out if I walk or ride somewhere where there is no place for me to go inside. Like in a street and there is no shop where I can go for help (if needed of course, but that is my thinking). So mainly during the day from about 10.00 am till 6.00 pm everything is almost ok (because shops and things are open) but before and after these times it is almost impossible for me to go outside because if I am in a street and there is no opportunity for me to go inside somewhere than I get the feeling that I become crazy. I really do not know what to do than. I sometimes start running very hard to reach a spot where I can go inside, sometimes I also want to ring someone’s doorbell just to ask for help. What kind of help I do not know, but I just want someone near to me that moment. Because you know, all these panick starts when I am alone not when I am with someone; And it does not have to be someone I know, it can be a stranger. When I am at the office during the day everything is allright, but I think the whole day about how to get back to the metro, because than I have to walk a street in which there are no shops or companies. And sometimes I think I cannot even walk, because it feels like my legs are crossed!
Ok , this is it for now; I just wanted to spill it out somewhere people can understand me and also have similar problems. I hope someone recognise this and maybe can tell me how he copes with it.
Kind regards to all of you,
Anastacia