kaz79
19-04-08, 16:33
Everything has been getting to me recently, most of my family criticise me and say Im a bad mother even though I try my hardest and look after twin girls while my partner works all the hours God sends.
I know I say things like 'I wish Id never had kids' but Its only because I find it so hard. I dont mean it.
Im always being let down by people and I have a massive issue with trust.
Anyway. I tried to give my alcoholic brother another chance and let him see my girls but he let me down again.... so I went out and got drunk and now I am paying the price with SEVERE anxiety. I cant keep still and I dont know what to do with myself. I woke up at a friends house at 3am and didnt know where I was, had to ride my bike home and be up at 6am whem Danika woke up. I feel guilty and knackered and I havent been able to go out coz Im so panicky.
I was doing o.k but every time I get let down I get more and more disheartened.
I know I say things like 'I wish Id never had kids' but Its only because I find it so hard. I dont mean it.
Im always being let down by people and I have a massive issue with trust.
Anyway. I tried to give my alcoholic brother another chance and let him see my girls but he let me down again.... so I went out and got drunk and now I am paying the price with SEVERE anxiety. I cant keep still and I dont know what to do with myself. I woke up at a friends house at 3am and didnt know where I was, had to ride my bike home and be up at 6am whem Danika woke up. I feel guilty and knackered and I havent been able to go out coz Im so panicky.
I was doing o.k but every time I get let down I get more and more disheartened.